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NEWINGTON, Conn. -- A state
lottery accountant who returned from stress-related disability only last
week gunned down three supervisors yesterday, then chased down the
lottery chief in the parking lot and killed him, too.
The man shot himself to death as
police closed in.
The gunman, Matthew Beck, 35, an
eight-year lottery employee, walked into a meeting, told one victim, "Bye,
bye" and opened fire, one witness said.
Beck had put in about a half-hour
of work yesterday morning before the rampage.
"I saw him come in and hang up
his coat," said Peter Donahue, who works in the accounting office. "He
didn't come in and just start blasting. He planned it."
The sound of gunshots sent
dozens of terrified workers rushing to the doors, where a security guard
yelled for them to run for the woods nearby.
Lottery president and chief
executive Otho Brown, 54, joined a security guard in yelling for
everyone to "just get out and run," said Shannon O'Neill. Brown fled the
building and Beck pursued him. When Brown stumbled in the gravel parking
lot after about 100 yards, Beck shot him to death.
"We all took off for the woods
and that was it. We heard gunshots when we were halfway through the
woods," said O'Neill, a field representative for the lottery.
Seconds later, with at least two
police officers watching, Beck shot himself. He later died at a
hospital.
A law enforcement source,
speaking to The Associated Press on condition of anonymity, said Beck
ran past a number of employees waving his gun before reaching Brown.
When he caught up to the lottery chief, Brown was lying on his back with
his hands up, pleading with Beck not to shoot him, according to the
source.
"He (Brown) said 'Don't kill me,
don't kill me.' And Beck says 'Ah, shut up,' and shoots him," the source
said.
Beck's supervisor, Karen
Kalandyk, said she was sitting next to the lottery's chief financial
officer, Linda Mlynarczyk, at a meeting with four other people when Beck
came in.
"He walked in and put his hand
up with the gun and said 'Bye, bye' to her and shot her three times," Ms.
Kalandyk said.
The other workers dived under
the table as Beck walked down the corridor, firing more shots. Someone
went over to Mlynarczyk, 38, also a former mayor of New Britain, but she
was already dead, Ms. Kalandyk said.
Also killed inside were
Frederick Rubelmann III, 40, vice president of operations, and Michael
Logan, 33, an information services manager.
"The whole state mourns this
unexplained act of violence," said Gov. John G. Rowland.
About 20 workers had taken
refuge in another part of the building used by a paint distributor. A
45-year-old man suffered a head injury as he jumped onto a moving
vehicle while trying to get out of Beck's way.
There is no armed security at
lottery headquarters, about 10 miles south of Hartford. About 115 state
workers are employed there, but it was unclear how many were there at
the time of the shooting.
Back to work with a plan for
revenge
By Diane Scarponi, Associated
Press writer
SouthCoastToday.com
March 7, 1998
HARTFORD, Conn. -- Matthew Beck
came to work yesterday with a gun and a grudge.
He had been back to work only
eight days after taking five months off for job-related stress. And
while Beck, 35, finally was going to go back to doing the accounting
work he enjoyed, he still was fighting his bosses over money.
He contended he got a raw deal
between July 1996 and October 1997 when supervisors shifted him from
number-crunching at the lottery agency to testing computer software. He
wanted back pay, contending he should have been paid more for the
computer job than his accountant's salary.
After months of negotiations,
the state in January agreed to give him back an accounting job. Beck
returned to work a month later, but he had changed during the time on
paid leave, said his new supervisor, Karen Kalandyk.
"When he came back, he wasn't
the same Matt. He was like talking to a stone," Kalandyk said.
Beck frightened some of his co-workers
with talk of playing paintball and his gun collection. But he did not
worry Kalandyk.
Even when he shaved his head and
grew a goatee more than a year ago -- a move he hoped would draw
attention away from his growing baldness -- she still chatted with him
on the job.
"Some people were afraid of him.
I wasn't, but I guess I was wrong," said Kalandyk, who watched from just
feet away yesterday as Beck shot their boss, Linda Mlynarczyk.
There was an indication
something was amiss long before the shootings.
In January 1997, while Beck was
mired in computer work under supervisor Michael Logan, Cromwell police
were called to Beck's apartment near the town center at the request of a
"concerned party."
Capt. Tom Roohr said the person
informed police that Beck "was displaying depression," and wanted
officers to make sure he was OK. He was not home, and surfaced later in
Middletown with a friend, Roohr said.
Logan also was killed yesterday.
Both he and Rick Rubelmann -- another victim -- had weighed in for the
state in contesting Beck's grievance. Beck had approached Rubelmann in
July 1996 about returning to work as an accountant, union officials said.
Union steward Joseph Mudry said
he got to know and like Beck while working on his grievance. The two
even talked Thursday, chit-chatting about UConn basketball and about
when Beck might see his back pay.
But Mudry said there were no
signs the hard-working, intelligent, golf aficionado had hit the
breaking point. Throughout the simmering pay fight, Beck had applied for
accounting jobs at other state agencies, but had been turned down.
"There was no indication of
anything being wrong," Mudry said. "He tried to work with management and
do whatever he could for them."
Union officials said yesterday
they do not know how much the back pay would have totaled.
Yesterday afternoon, state
police searched a garage and a pickup truck at Beck's father's home in
Ledyard. Police said Beck has a gun permit in that town.
"Yes, he has been troubled, but
I don't want to talk to you right now," said his father, Donald Beck.
A blue sticker on the father's
front door reads: "Warning: Trespassers will be shot. Survivors will be
shot again."
Four People Devoted to Work and Family
By Frank Bruni - The New York Times
March 7, 1998
With his retiring demeanor and sparse words,
Otho R. Brown could easily blend into almost any background. But
he stood at the forefront of the state lottery industry, because
he had navigated the potentially turbulent transition of
Connecticut's game from what was essentially a government agency
to its own quasi-public entity.
''To my knowledge, it's really the only lottery in
the United States that went from one form to the other,'' said Jeff
Perlee, director of the New York State Lottery, which operates as a
government agency. ''That's quite an accomplishment.''
But Mr. Brown, whose job title changed in July 1996
from Chief of the Connecticut Lottery Unit to president of the
Connecticut Lottery Corporation, did not stop there. He set his sights
on 15 percent growth in lottery revenues each year.
And he was working to make that happen when he, along
with three other top lottery executives, was killed yesterday morning by
a man who the police said was a disgruntled employee.
People who had worked with Mr. Brown, 54, said that
it was hard to imagine him doing anything to provoke such wrath.
''He was a great boss,'' said Frank D. Brown Jr., the deputy director of
the Delaware State Lottery, which Mr. Brown ran from 1987 to 1991. The
two men are not related. ''He was a really compassionate individual,''
Frank Brown said.
He added that the white-haired Otho Brown had grown
even softer and mellower through the years, making a lasting union of
his third marriage, to Denise Brown, and then becoming a father in his
early 40's. The couple's two daughters, identical twins, will mark their
ninth birthday on Monday, Frank Brown said.
''He was such a proud, happy father,'' he said,
adding that Otho Brown, who preferred to be called ''Ott,'' also had an
11-year-old son. ''This is just unbelievable.''
Within the last two years, neighbors said, the family
had bought a spacious ranch house in Avon, a densely wooded suburb of
Hartford.
Mr. Brown was born and raised in Delaware, served in
the Army and graduated from the University of Delaware in 1969. After
many years in real estate, he took a job as an analyst in Delaware's
State Budget Office in 1983.
His rise in state government was quick, and in 1987
he was handed the reins of the lottery. He had a wild side back then,
Frank Brown said, and used to race on dirt tracks with the motorcycle he
owned.
Between 1991 and 1993, he worked briefly in the
private sector. Then he signed on with Connecticut's lottery, where his
salary grew to more than $100,000 a year.
In an interview in 1996, he described the lottery's
new identity as a quasi-public corporation, saying, ''We're a business
that is intended to return profits to the shareholders, who are the
people of Connecticut.''
He also was disappointed that collective-bargaining
rules still applied to many employees, because he believed there should
be incentive pay.
Linda Mlynarczyk
In 1993, Ms. Mlynarczyk, a Republican, ran for mayor
of New Britain, Conn., even though the city had been controlled for
decades by Democrats and its voters had never elected a woman to that
post.
And Ms. Mlynarczyk won. Friends said it was the
culmination of a lifetime of community service -- of pitching in to
pluck the litter off dirty streets, volunteering to read to children at
schools and sitting on the boards of social service agencies.
''Some people do it just because it helps them get to
one place or another,'' said Dottie Di Lernia, a longtime friend who
attended high school with Ms. Mlynarczyk. ''She was always doing it,
from way back when. She was genuine.''
Ms. Mlynarczyk, 38, whose name was Linda Blogoslawski
when she was Mayor -- she married Peter Mlynarczyk, a lawyer, around the
time she left office -- served just one two-year term, losing her bid
for re-election in 1995.
Uncertain what to do next, but eager for a job that
would use her training and certification as a public accountant, she
signed on with the State Lottery in 1996 as its chief financial officer.
Her salary was about $80,000 a year.
She loved her work there, and the job, coupled with
her recent marriage, had made this ''a real high point in her life,'' Ms.
Di Lernia said in a telephone interview from Ms. Mlynarcyzk's home. She
said relatives were too upset to talk.
Linda Blogoslawski grew up in New Britain in a Polish
family that had lived there for generations. Her father ran a prominent
funeral home in New Britain, which is Connecticut's seventh largest city,
with about 70,000 residents.
She was the valedictorian in New Britain High
School's Class of 1978, then attended Fairfield University in Fairfield,
Conn., where friends said she graduated with highest honors.
As Mayor, she was praised for her lack of pretension
and for her accessibility. ''She brought a touch of homeyness to that
job,'' said Dan Bugnacki, the principal of New Britain High School, who
once taught her pre-calculus.
The city's current Mayor, Lucian J. Pawlak, said, ''She
was just a very good citizen -- totally committed to this city. She had
a vibrancy, and people will always remember her for her smile.''
Mr. Pawlak said that Ms. Mlynarczyk and her husband
did not have any children.
Frederick Rubelmann 3d
Frederick Rubelmann 3d, 40, had spent more than 18
years in one aspect of the gaming industry or another, working his way
up to the position of vice president for operations and administration
at the Connecticut Lottery Corporation in July 1996.
In a statement, his relatives said he was an equally
devoted husband to Mary Rubelmann and father to Sarah, 11, and Eric, 10.
The family lived in Southington, Conn. ''This is a terrible loss,'' the
family's statement said. ''He will be greatly missed every day for the
rest of our lives.''
Mr. Rubelmann was born and raised in Connecticut,
attending the University of Connecticut for undergraduate work and the
University of New Haven for a master's in business administration.
Michael Logan
Michael Logan, the youngest of the victims, was 33
years old. He left a wife and two young children. Mr. Logan, of
Colchester, Conn., was the lottery's director of information systems.
Before going to work for the lottery, he had spent 10 years as an
electronic systems engineer for a private company. He graduated from
Northeastern University in Boston with a degree in electrical
engineering.
By Jim Yardley - The New York Times
March 8, 1998
NEWINGTON, Conn.—It is an ordinary beige building with a warehouse in the
back, but to many people, the headquarters of the Connecticut
Lottery is a place of fantasy where the big winners go to pose with
the big cardboard check. They follow the bright yellow ''Prize Claim
Center'' sign into a special reception area and collect jackpots,
from $600 to hundreds of thousands of dollars.
There is another entrance, one used by the
secretaries, accountants and other employees who keep the Lottery
humming. They must punch in a code to enter the warren of cubicles and
partitions. An outsider could easily get turned around, but Matthew Beck,
an accountant, had worked at the Lottery for more than eight years. He
knew where he was going, and on Friday morning, he knew what he wanted
to do.
More than 100 Lottery employees work in this office
in a Hartford suburb. ''He could have shot all of us,'' said Karen
Kalandyk, one of Mr. Beck's supervisors.
But he wanted only four of them.
Hindsight seems to offer a terrible, simple clarity:
An embittered employee passed over for a promotion and recently returned
from a stress-related medical leave, Mr. Beck, 35, stalked and killed
the three Lottery executives and one supervisor whom he might have
blamed for his failures.
His frustrations at the office also reached into his
personal life: An office romance had soured, and, according to several
employees, the woman had begun dating the man who replaced Mr. Beck
during his leave.
Yet the calculated, personal manner of the slayings
seems to indicate that Mr. Beck knew everyone he was after. He
apparently had not targeted his former girlfriend. With blood staining
his blue jeans, he mouthed ''bye-bye'' to his new boss, Linda Mlynarczyk,
and shot her three times with a handgun. When his rampage ended, Mr.
Beck turned the gun on himself.
As mourners decorated the Lottery office with flowers
today, the families of the five dead made funeral arrangements. The
lingering questions offered no tidy answers: Why did Mr. Beck snap so
violently? Could anyone have foreseen his rage and prevented it? One
employee, David A. Perlot, an accountant, said he suspected Mr. Beck
even as he was fleeing the building from the then-unknown attacker.
''The thought crossed my mind that it was him because
he was strange and a little disgruntled,'' Mr. Perlot said. On the same
morning, a Hartford Courant reporter, Lyn Bixby, checked his voice mail
messages after spending Thursday out of town. ''Hey, Lyn, it's Matt Beck,''
began a message left at 12:01 P.M. Thursday. Mr. Bixby covers the
Lottery, and Mr. Beck had tipped him to past stories.
Mr. Beck's voice was calm; he just asked for a
meeting. By the time Mr. Bixby heard the message, it was too late.
''Who knows what would have happened if I had been in
the office and if we had met in person, as he suggested,'' Mr. Bixby
wrote in today's Courant. ''Would he have brought his knife and his gun?
Would a conversation with a reporter have been enough of an outlet to
defuse the bomb that was about to explode?''
When Mr. Beck returned from medical leave on Feb. 25,
several co-workers noticed his cold, aloof manner. ''I had a feeling all
week,'' said Eleanor Simonides, a secretary. ''His eyes weren't right.''
A co-worker in the accounting department, Richard J.
Heckart, said many employees wished that Mr. Beck had not returned at
all. Mr. Heckart, however, considered himself a friend. He said that Mr.
Beck collected guns and enjoyed playing paintball, asimulated war game.
The two men had played in a golf tournament in October, and Mr. Heckart
remembered two things: Mr. Beck hit the ball as hard as he could every
time, and he got very drunk afterward.
Mr. Beck had left on sick leave in October,
complaining of stress. He had filed a grievance against the state in
August. He had complained that he was performing data processing tasks
beyond his accounting duties that should have earned him $2 more an hour.
He won the first round of the grievance in January and was waiting to
learn whether he would receive back pay. But he was also embittered
because his promotion from accountant to a supervisory position had been
rejected.
John Krinjak, a Lottery sales representative, said he
noticed Mr. Beck's coldness and bitterness last summer. Like others, he
recalled that Mr. Beck shaved his head and grew a goatee. ''He became
visibly withdrawn into himself,'' Mr. Krinjak recalled. ''He took on a
severe look, an angry look. He looked like he had lost weight and gotten
pale..''
Friday is dress-down day in the Lottery office. Work
begins at around 8 A.M., and Mr. Beck arrived in blue jeans and a
leather jacket. Both Angela Bentley, a supervisor, and Ms. Kalandyk
noticed that Mr. Beck did not take off his jacket inside but kept it
zipped up. Mr. Heckart remembered seeing him shortly after 8 A.M. in a
sweatshirt. Ms. Bentley exchanged innocuous hellos with Mr. Beck and
went for a cup of coffee before returning to her office. What she did
not know was that Mr. Beck was carrying a 9-millimeter Glock handgun and
a knife under his jacket, the authorities later said.
Mr. Beck's desk in the accounts payable department
sits midway between the administrative suite in the front of the
building and the information systems unit in the rear. In his unhappy
months before he took medical leave, he had done data processing under
Michael T. Logan, the information systems supervisor. Mr. Beck's skills
with computers were unquestioned, but, Ms. Kalandyk said, he could not
communicate: ''He couldn't tell us what he knew.''
At about 8:15 A.M., Ms. Simonides noticed Mr. Beck
rummaging in the darkened closet near Mr. Logan's office. ''He was
hunched over, looking for something,'' she recalled. ''I said, 'Why
don't you turn the light on?' He said, 'I'm looking for something.' He
had this very serious look on his face.''
Ms. Simonides walked away, and a few minutes later Mr.
Beck plunged a knife into Mr. Logan's chest, the police said.
In the administrative suite, Ms. Kalandyk and four
other employees were having a meeting with Ms. Mlynarczyk. Suddenly, Mr.
Beck appeared in the open doorway, facing Ms. Mlynarczyk. A former mayor
of New Britain, Ms. Mlynarczyk had joined the Lottery as chief financial
officer in 1996. As his new boss, she had met with Mr. Beck on Feb. 27
to explain his new duties upon his return. Now, he stared at Ms.
Mlynarczyk, told her, ''Bye-bye,'' and shot her three times.
''He could have gotten any of us,'' said Ms. Kalandyk,
who sat beside Ms. Mlynarczyk, ''but he knew who he wanted to get. He
just lowered the gun and walked away. I made eye contact, and his eyes
were dead.''
With Ms. Mlynarczyk slumped in her chair, Ms.
Kalandyk and the others jumped behind a desk. Someone dialed 911;
another person managed to close the door. Meanwhile, the sharp cracks of
gunfire had sent employees fleeing the building.
''About five or six girls came running in our door,
screaming hysterically: 'He's coming! He's coming! He's got a gun! Don't
let him get us!' '' said Gary Peltzer, a salesman at a paint
distributing business in the same building as the Lottery.
It was widely known around the office that Mr. Beck
had dated another employee, Kim Jackowski, until she ended the
relationship. When Mr. Beck took his leave, Ms. Jackowski began seeing
his replacement, Joseph Santopietro, several employees said. Mr.
Santopietro happened to be working outside the main office Friday. Ms.
Jackowski survived, and there is no indication that Mr. Beck sought her
out.
Inside the administrative suite, the door to Ms.
Mlynarczyk's office suddenly opened. Frederick W. Rubelmann 3d, 40, vice
president of operations, appeared. ''He said, 'Is everyone O.K.?' '' Ms.
Kalandyk recalled. ''We said, 'No, Linda has been shot.' He closed the
door for us. I think he went toward Matt.''
Mr. Rubelmann and the Lottery's president, Otho R.
Brown, had rejected Mr. Beck's promotion, Ms. Kalandyk said. Now, Mr.
Beck confronted Mr. Rubelmann and shot him as the executive directed
employees outside.
Mr. Beck could not know that Newington police
officers would arrive within minutes. He staggered outside, soaked in
blood, and began chasing his final prey, Mr. Brown. A 54-year-old father
of three, Mr. Brown had personally sought out Mr. Beck for a new
position when the Connecticut Lottery became a quasi-private entity in
1996.
Now, Mr. Brown led a group of employees sprinting
toward a gravel parking lot about 200 yards away. Mr. Brown shouted for
everyone to rush into nearby woods, but he continued straight through
the parking lot. Mr. Heckart, who jumped into the woods, credited Mr.
Brown with luring Mr. Beck away from everyone else. From the woods, Mr.
Heckart saw Mr. Brown stumble and fall.
''Matt was standing over him and had shot him twice,''
Mr. Heckart said. ''We realized who it was and we were all yelling, 'Don't
do it, Matt! Don't do it!' ''
''After the second bullet,'' Mr. Heckart continued,
''Ott raised his hand as if to say, 'Please don't shoot me.' He was
still alive. That's when Matt turned away for a step and came back and
shot him a third time.'' Police officers arrived and began approaching.
But Mr. Beck lifted the nose of his gun to his temple and pulled the
trigger.
''They were the people who had the power in the
lottery,'' Ms. Kalandyk said of those Mr. Beck had chosen to kill. ''They
were the ones who had turned down his promotion.''
As police officers covered the bodies, employees
began emerging from the woods. Many were covered in mud. The whole
episode had taken only a few, terrifying minutes.
Ms. Kalandyk said she had noticed a stranger among
the people who had fled the building. Then she remembered: Someone had
come in to pick up a Lottery jackpot.
Father of Lottery Killer Says Son 'Not a Monster'
By Jonathan Rabinovitz - The New York Times
March 9, 1998
HARTFORD —After learning that his son had overdosed on pills, Donald Beck
rushed over to the apartment, dragged him out of bed and to an emergency
room and had his stomach pumped, a move that may well have saved the
young man's life.
This morning, Mr. Beck wondered whether he should
have just let his son, Matthew, kill himself on that terrible night last
year.
Only two days ago, on Friday, Mr. Beck learned that
his 35-year-old son -- his canasta and bowling partner, and someone whom
he would often call at work to say, 'I love you' -- methodically stabbed
and shot to death four of his bosses at the Connecticut Lottery before
taking his own life.
''I brought him to the emergency room a year ago, and
the doctors said, 'Thank God that he lived,' '' a sobbing Mr. Beck said
in a telephone interview this morning. ''But maybe not 'Thank God.'
Maybe he would have been better off not saved. Maybe I should have not
done anything and left him there.
''If I had known what was going to happen, God
forgive me, I would have done that,'' Mr. Beck, a retired industrial
microbiologist at Pfizer, said. He had just been going through his son's
clothing and possessions in the family's modest Cape Cod home in Ledyard,
a town in Eastern Connecticut. It was where Matthew had grown up and
from where he had left Friday for his job as a Lottery accountant as if
it were any other day.
Over the last 48 hours, Mr. Beck has tried to cope
with the ultimate horror of any parent, learning that his child had
committed abominable acts that defied understanding.
The killings have not only stunned Mr. Beck but left
this state in shock. State flags are flying at half staff, and grief
counselors and clergy members have fielded calls from dozens of Lottery
workers who saw the rampage at the headquarters in Newington, a Hartford
suburb.
This weekend, mourners stopped there to leave flowers
and cry.
The building itself will not reopen until Tuesday --
Gov. John G. Rowland ordered it closed Monday -- and state workers have
been cleaning up the offices so that employees can return. Yet the
Lottery employees are unlikely to work full days this week, as they have
funerals and wakes to attend.
''What our son Matthew did was terribly, terribly
wrong,'' Mr. Beck said today, as he choked back tears and began to read
a formal 146-word apology he had written to the families of the victims
early Saturday, before the sun had risen. ''We love you, Matt, but why?''
Matthew Edward Beck had in the last two years been
battling a serious depression, which had hospitalized him on two
occasions. But his father said today that he had thought the young man
had it under control. He was taking three types of medication, his
father said, and was seeing a psychiatrist, Dr. Peter Smith, in Hartford.
It was under Dr. Smith's care that Matthew Beck was given a leave last
October because of job-related stress, and it was with Dr. Smith's
blessing that the young man decided to return to work on Feb. 25, Donald
Beck said.
His son had no trouble with depression until July
1996, Mr. Beck said, when the Lottery was spun off as a quasi-public
corporation. Matthew Beck transferred from the public agency that had
run the games to the new entity, hoping that there would be opportunity
for advancement, his father said. That did not occur.
Instead, the younger Mr. Beck found himself doing a
job in which he believed he was being underpaid, and he filed a
grievance in August 1997. In the months before, Matthew Beck became so
depressed that his father and sister urged him to seek help.
In January 1997, Matthew Beck began seeing a
psychiatrist and taking medication, his father said, declining to
specify the type of drugs that were prescribed. Although Matthew had
tried to cut his wrists once in college, Mr. Beck said that the
depression his son experienced in 1997 was unlike anything before it.
''He was zombielike and had a fixed stare,'' Mr. Beck
said. ''There was no inflection in his voice.'' His son was not ranting
and raving, but withdrawn and subdued, he said.
When Matthew was asked why he might want to kill
himself, the young man explained that ''everything seemed so hopeless,''
his father said.
Still, the young accountant appeared to have
rebounded in the last few months, Mr. Beck said. At his parents' urging,
he had given up his apartment in another town and moved back to his old
room in Ledyard. On Wednesday, when he came home from work, he brought
his father a cake to celebrate Mr. Beck's 70th birthday.
He saw no sign that his son was on the verge of
taking drastic action. Matthew Beck had just bought a big supply of
yogurt, a favorite food, suggesting that he was thinking ahead. And he
had made plans for Friday night to see a movie, ''Titanic,'' Mr. Beck
said.
While co-workers have said they feared that Matthew
Beck could snap, his father said the family felt fine about leaving
Matthew with his young nephews and nieces. Although Matthew collected
guns, Mr. Beck said he had never feared that his son would turn them on
someone else. Shortly after Matthew was first stricken with the
depression, Mr. Beck asked him whether he felt violently toward others;
Mr. Beck was persuaded that Matthew posed a threat only to himself.
On Friday morning, Mr. Beck watched his son leave for
work, and he saw nothing out of the ordinary, certainly no evidence that
he carried a 9-millimeter Glock, a semiautomatic handgun that Mr. Beck
said his son had owned for several years.
''The mind is a strange thing,'' he said. ''It works
in sinister ways that even professionals don't understand.''
It has left Mr. Beck confused, tormented and ashamed.
Priscilla Beck, Matthew's mother, has started writing
letters to all her relatives, apologizing for her son's actions. The
family is trying to keep the funeral secret so it will draw no more
attention to their son.
''He was really a great guy,'' Mr. Beck said, ''but
what he did is what everyone will remember him for.''
The father struggled today as he read his apology
over the telephone.
''His murderous act was monstrous, but he was not a
monster,'' Mr. Beck said and started to cry. ''We offer our sincerest
sympathy to all the families and apologize for Matt.
''I cannot ask you to forgive him, for we have not
yet forgiven him for what he did.''