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Marc CHAHAL
Survivor still haunted by memories
Teenager recalls shots, screams and bloodbath
Manpreet Grewal - The Province
Sunday, April 02, 2006
That's how one of the four survivors of the Vernon
massacre -- B.C.'s worst mass murder -- recalls the day 10 years ago
when her young life changed forever.
"I remember everything vividly, as if it had happened
a couple of hours ago," says Brittany Saran, speaking for the first time
about surviving the massacre that claimed nine family members and gunman
Mark Chahal, her estranged uncle.
Saran remembers the sounds of gunshots, the screams,
the bloodbath and the chaos -- and that suddenly, it was over.
Six-year-old twins Brittany and Justine and four-year-old
sister Courtney were happily watching television with their mom in their
grandparents' living room when Chahal -- armed with two handguns --
began his rampage.
Bitter over his failed marriage to Rajwar Gakhal and
enraged over her allegations of abuse, Chahal stalked methodically
through the house, firing at former in-laws preparing for a family
wedding.
By the time Chahal finished, the entire Gakhal family
-- Brittany's grandparents, four aunts and an uncle -- and mother Jasbir
Saran and her father, Roger, were dead.
The days following the massacre, which shocked the
Okanagan city and its tight-knit Indo-Canadian community, were hazy.
"I remember being with the extended family in Vernon
for a few days and then my grandpa brought us to Abbotsford," she
recalls. "The grandparents moved in with us in our parents' home."
Despite the familiar surroundings, life was never the
same.
"I remember Halloween firecrackers could make me
shudder when I was young," she says. "I would be scared and run to my
grandparents. I can still feel insecure, just hearing a door slam.
"I still have haunting dreams of that terrible day. I
still feel unsettled if I have to go to Vernon for any reason."
Despite the killings, the twins have good memories of
their parents.
"I have memories of my childhood. We were always at
baseball games, watching my dad practise and play," she says.
"We were in ballet lessons, enrolled in gymnastics,
skating and swimming. We had very active lives.
"We travelled a lot as a family. I have fun memories
of visited my grandparents and aunts and uncles in Vernon.
"All that changed for us. My grandparents, who have
raised us in the last 10 years, mean the world to me.
"But I always feel that they have their own place in
my life. I was close to them even when my parents were alive. They gave
up their life for us and have tried to provide us with a lot of safety
and caring."
Brittany remembers her mom as a smart, sweet,
confident modern woman who would have provided them with opportunities
in life.
She remembers her father as a strong, sweet,
protective force in her life. He was a corrections officer to whom she
looked for security.
"When he was alive, I always thought of myself as
daddy's little girl," she says. "I miss them so much. I got an English
and a drama award last year and I so wanted them to be there and proud
of me.
"Both Justine and I have participated in plays at
school and performed to huge audiences. I was the main character in the
Alice in Wonderland enactment at school. When I am on stage, my eyes
always search for my parents' faces in the crowds. I can imagine their
camera clicking. Those are some of the hardest mom- ents for me.
"Birthdays are also hard for all of us, because we
remember the birthday parties my mom and dad used to throw for us."
Brittany remembers the transition from elementary to
middle to eventually secondary schools as particularly difficult without
the support of her parents.
"In some ways, our lives are like everyone else's
with ordinary routines, but in other ways different, because of our
tragic past, which will always be a part of us," she says. "We, as
siblings, don't talk about the tragedy too often. We all deal with our
ugly memories in our own way.
"What we love to do is listen to others share happy
memories of our parents. For example, just the other day, the principal
from my old school was saying he knew my dad and he thought he was a
great hockey player. I was thrilled to pieces."
Adds Justine: "Our grandparents' whole life in the
last 10 years has revolved around us, but they are older and traditional
and can only do so much. Absolutely nothing can take the place of our
parents."
That absence led Brittany to follow her mother's
footsteps in a bid to understand the person she was.
One day, she saw one of her mother's business cards
from Abbotsford Community Services (ACS) and felt a tug at her. She
needed to learn more about what her mother had done in the workplace and
the community.
Last May, Brittany went to the ACS building to
volunteer. Justine soon followed.
"I felt the connection as soon as I walked in," says
Brittany.
She recalled the whole family participating in the
laughter and sounds of community events in a big meeting room now named
The Jasbir Saran room.
It was months before Brittany told anyone in the
agency who she was.
The twins learned their mom had worked for ACS for
about nine years and was instrumental in the growth and development of
English as a second language classes, which provide language training,
settlement and orientation to new immigrants. She was known for her
empathy, compassion and diligence by those she had served and for her
professionalism, commitment and hard work by her colleagues.
That brought solace to the orphans, now on the cusp
of their adult lives.
Says Brittany: "I want my parents remembered not only
with happy memories, but also in the context of what happened to them.
They need to learn and prevent it from happening in the future. People
in government and police need to know that there is something really
wrong when people get guns and shoot and change lives forever."