"Rector, and master of the first class.
"Richembourg, Sept. 15, 1814"
But it was really the parents of Sand, and in
particular his mother, who had prepared the fertile soil in which his
teachers had sowed the seeds of learning; Sand knew this well, for at
the moment of setting out for the university of Tubingen, where he was
about to complete the theological studies necessary for becoming a
pastor, as he desired to do, he wrote to them:—
"I confess that, like all my brothers and sisters,
I owe to you that beautiful and great part of my education which I
have seen to be lacking to most of those around me. Heaven alone can
reward you by a conviction of having so nobly and grandly fulfilled
your parental duties, amid many others."
After having paid a visit to his brother at St.
Gall, Sand reached Tubingen, to which he had been principally
attracted by the reputation of Eschenmayer; he spent that winter
quietly, and no other incident befell than his admission into an
association of Burschen, called the Teutonic; then came tester of
1815, and with it the terrible news that Napoleon had landed in the
Gulf of Juan. Immediately all the youth of Germany able to bear arms
gathered once more around the banners of 1813 and 1814. Sand followed
the general example; but the action, which in others was an effect of
enthusiasm, was in him the result of calm and deliberate resolution.
He wrote to Wonsiedel on this occasion:—
"April 22, 1813
"MY DEAR PARENTS,—Until now you have found me
submissive to your parental lessons and to the advice of my excellent
masters; until now I have made efforts to render myself worthy of the
education that God has sent me through you, and have applied myself to
become capable of spreading the word of the Lord through my native
land; and for this reason I can to-day declare to you sincerely the
decision that I lave taken, assured that as tender and affectionate
parents you will calm yourselves, and as German parents and patriots
you will rather praise my resolution than seek to turn me from it.
"The country calls once more for help, and this
time the call is addressed to me, too, for now I have courage and
strength. It cast me a great in ward struggle, believe me, to abstain
when in 1813 she gave her first cry, and only the conviction held me
back that thousands of others were then fighting and conquering for
Germany, while I had to live far the peaceful calling to which I was
destined. Now it is a question of preserving our newly re-established
liberty, which in so many places has already brought in so rich a
harvest. The all-powerful and merciful Lord reserves for us this great
trial, which will certainly be the last; it is for us, therefore, to
show that we are worthy of the supreme gift which He has given us, and
capable of upholding it with strength and firmness.
"The danger of the country has never been so great
as it is now, that is why, among the youth of Germany, the strong
should support the wavering, that all may rise together. Our brave
brothers in the north are already assembling from all parts under
their banners; the State of Wurtemburg is, proclaiming a general levy,
and volunteers are coming in from every quarter, asking to die for
their country. I consider it my duty, too, to fight for my country and
for all the dear ones whom I love. If I were not profoundly convinced
of this truth, I should not communicate my resolution to you; but my
family is one that has a really German heart, and that would consider
me as a coward and an unworthy son if I did not follow this impulse. I
certainly feel the greatness of the sacrifice; it costs me something,
believe me, to leave my beautiful studies and go to put myself under
the orders of vulgar, uneducated people, but this only increases my
courage in going to secure the liberty of my brothers; moreover, when
once that liberty is secured, if God deigns to allow, I will return to
carry them His word.
"I take leave, therefore, for a time of you, my
most worthy parents, of my brothers, my sisters, and all who are dear
to me. As, after mature deliberation, it seems the most suitable thing
for me to serve with the Bavarians. I shall get myself enrolled, for
as long as the war may last, with a company of that nation. Farewell,
then; live happily; far away from you as I shall be, I shall follow
your pious exhortations. In this new track I shall still I hope,
remain pure before God, and I shall always try to walk in the path
that rises above the things of earth and leads to those of heaven, and
perhaps in this career the bliss of saving some souls from their fall
may be reserved for me.
"Your dear image will always be about me; I will
always have the Lord before my eyes and in my heart, so that I may
endure joyfully the pains and fatigues of this holy war. Include me in
your Prayers; God will send you the hope of better times to help you
in bearing the unhappy time in which we now are. We cannot see one
another again soon, unless we conquer; and if we should be conquered (which
God forbid!), then my last wish, which I pray you, I conjure you, to
fulfil, my last and supreme wish would be that you, my dear and
deserving German relatives, should leave an enslaved country for some
other not yet under the yoke.
"But why should we thus sadden one another's hearts?
Is not our cause just and holy, and is not God just and holy? How then
should we not be victors? You see that sometimes I doubt, so, in your
letters, which I am impatiently expecting, have pity on me and do not
alarm my soul, far in any case we shall meet again in another country,
and that one will always be free and happy.
"I am, until death, your dutiful and grateful son,
These two lines of Korner's were written as a
postscript:—
With this farewell to his parents, and with
Korner's poems on his lips, Sand gave up his books, and on the 10th of
May we find him in arms among the volunteer chasseurs enrolled under
the command of Major Falkenhausen, who was at that time at Mannheim;
here he found his second brother, who had preceded him, and they
underwent all their drill together.
Though Sand was not accustomed to great bodily
fatigues, he endured those of the campaign with surprising strength,
refusing all the alleviations that his superiors tried to offer him;
for he would allow no one to outdo him in the trouble that he took for
the good of the country. On the march he invariably shared: anything
that he possessed fraternally with his comrades, helping those who
were weaker than himself to carry their burdens, and, at once priest
and soldier, sustaining them by his words when he was powerless to do
anything more.
On the 18th of June, at eight o'clock in the
evening, he arrived upon the field of battle at Waterloo, On the 14th
of July he entered Paris.
On the 18th of December, 1815, Karl Sand and his
brother were back at Wonsiedel, to the great joy of their family. He
spent the Christmas holidays and the end of the year with them, but
his ardour for his new vacation did not allow him to remain longer,
and an the 7th of January he reached Erlangen. Then, to make up for
lost time, he resolved to subject his day to fixed and uniform rules,
and to write down every evening what he had done since the morning. It
is by the help of this journal that we are able to follow the young
enthusiast, not only in all the actions of his life, but also in all
the thoughts of his mind and all the hesitations of his conscience. In
it we find his whole self, simple to naivete, enthusiastic to madness,
gentle even to weakness towards others, severe even to asceticism
towards himself. One of his great griefs was the expense that his
education occasioned to his parents, and every useless and costly
pleasure left a remorse in his heart. Thus, on the 9th of February
1816, he wrote:—
"I meant to go and visit my parents. Accordingly I
went to the 'Commers-haus', and there I was much amused. N. and T.
began upon me with the everlasting jokes about Wonsiedel; that went on
until eleven o'clock. But afterwards N. and T. began to torment me to
go to the wine-shop; I refused as long as I could. But as, at last,
they seemed to think that it was from contempt of them that I would
not go and drink a glass of Rhine wine with them, I did not dare
resist longer. Unfortunately, they did not stop at Braunberger; and
while my glass was still half full, N. ordered a bottle of champagne.
When the first had disappeared, T. ordered a second; then, even before
this second battle was drunk, both of them ordered a third in my name
and in spite of me. I returned home quite giddy, and threw myself on
the sofa, where I slept for about an hour, and only went to bed
afterwards.
"Thus passed this shameful day, in which I have not
thought enough of my kind and worthy parents, who are leading a poor
and hard life, and in which I suffered myself to be led away by the
example of people who have money into spending four florins—an
expenditure which was useless, and which would have kept the whole
family for two days. Pardon me, my God, pardon me, I beseech Thee, and
receive the vow that I make never to fall into the same fault again.
In future I will live even more abstemiously than I usually do, so as
to repair the fatal traces in my poor cash-box of my extravagance, and
not to be obliged to ask money of my mother before the day when she
thinks of sending me some herself."
Then, at the very time when the poor young man
reproaches himself as if with a crime with having spent four florins,
one of his cousins, a widow, dies and leaves three orphan children. He
runs immediately to carry the first consolations to the unhappy little
creatures, entreats his mother to take charge of the youngest, and
overjoyed at her answer, thanks her thus:—
"Far the very keen joy that you have given me by
your letter, and for the very dear tone in which your soul speaks to
me, bless you, O my mother! As I might have hoped and been sure, you
have taken little Julius, and that fills me afresh with the deepest
gratitude towards you, the rather that, in my constant trust in your
goodness, I had already in her lifetime given our good little cousin
the promise that you are fulfilling for me after her death."
About March, Sand, though he did not fall ill, had
an indisposition that obliged him to go and take the waters; his
mother happened at the time to be at the ironworks of Redwitz, same
twelve or fifteen miles from Wonsiedel, where the mineral springs are
found. Sand established himself there with his mother, and
notwithstanding his desire to avoid interrupting his work, the time
taken up by baths, by invitations to dinners, and even by the walks
which his health required, disturbed the regularity of his usual
existence and awakened his remorse. Thus we find these lines written
in his journal for April 13th:
"Life, without some high aim towards which all
thoughts and actions tend, is an empty desert: my day yesterday is a
proof of this; I spent it with my own people, and that, of course, was
a great pleasure to me; but how did I spend it? In continual eating,
so that when I wanted to work I could do nothing worth doing. Full of
indolence and slackness, I dragged myself into the company of two or
three sets of people, and came from them in the same state of mind as
I went to them."
Far these expeditions Sand made use of a little
chestnut horse which belonged to his brother, and of which he was very
fond. This little horse had been bought with great difficulty; for, as
we have said, the whole family was poor. The following note, in
relation to the animal, will give an idea of Sand's simplicity of
heart:—
"19th April
"To-day I have been very happy at the ironworks,
and very industrious beside my kind mother. In the evening I came home
on the little chestnut. Since the day before yesterday, when he got a
strain and hurt his foot, he has been very restive and very touchy,
and when he got home he refused his food. I thought at first that he
did not fancy his fodder, and gave him some pieces of sugar and sticks
of cinnamon, which he likes very much; he tasted them, but would not
eat them. The poor little beast seems to have same other internal
indisposition besides his injured foot. If by ill luck he were to
become foundered or ill, everybody, even my parents, would throw the
blame on me, and yet I have been very careful and considerate of him.
My God, my Lord, Thou who canst do things both great and small, remove
from me this misfortune, and let him recover as quickly as possible.
If, however, Thou host willed otherwise, and if this fresh trouble is
to fall upon us, I will try to bear it with courage, and as the
expiation of same sin. Meanwhile, O my Gad, I leave this matter in Thy
hands, as I leave my life and my soul."
On the 20th of April he wrote:—"The little horse is
well; God has helped me."
German manners and customs are so different from
ours, and contrasts occur so frequently in the same man, on the other
side of the Rhine, that anything less than all the quotations which we
have given would have been insufficient to place before our readers a
true idea of that character made up of artlessness and reason,
childishness and strength, depression and enthusiasm, material details
and poetic ideas, which renders Sand a man incomprehensible to us. We
will now continue the portrait, which still wants a few finishing
touches.
When he returned to Erlangen, after the completion
of his "cure," Sand read Faust far the first time. At first he was
amazed at that work, which seemed to him an orgy of genius; then, when
he had entirely finished it, he reconsidered his first impression, and
wrote:—
"4th May
"Oh, horrible struggle of man and devil! What
Mephistopheles is in me I feel far the first time in this hour, and I
feel it, O God, with consternation!
"About eleven at night I finished reading the
tragedy, and I felt and saw the fiend in myself, so that by midnight,
amid my tears and despair, I was at last frightened at myself."
Sand was falling by degrees into a deep melancholy,
from which nothing could rouse him except his desire to purify and
preach morality to the students around him. To anyone who knows
university life such a task will seem superhuman. Sand, however, was
not discouraged, and if he could not gain an influence over everyone,
he at least succeeded in forming around him a considerable circle of
the most intelligent and the best; nevertheless, in the midst of these
apostolic labours strange longings for death would overcome him; he
seemed to recall heaven and want to return to it; he called these
temptations "homesickness for the soul's country."
His favourite authors were Lessing, Schiller,
Herder, and Goethe; after re-reading the two last for the twentieth
time, this is what he wrote:
"Good and evil touch each other; the woes of the
young Werther and Weisslingen's seduction, are almost the same story;
no matter, we must not judge between what is good and what is evil in
others; for that is what God will do. I have just been spending much
time over this thought, and have become convinced that in no
circumstances ought we to allow ourselves to seek for the devil in
others, and that we have no right to judge; the only creature over
wham we have received the power to judge and condemn is ourself, and
that gives us enough constant care, business, and trouble.
"I have again to-day felt a profound desire to quit
this world and enter a higher world; but this desire is rather
dejection than strength, a lassitude than an upsoaring."
The year 1816 was spent by Sand in these pious
attempts upon his young comrades, in this ceaseless self-examination,
and in the perpetual battle which he waged with the desire for death
that pursued him; every day he had deeper doubts of himself; and on
the 1st of January, 1817, he wrote this prayer in his diary:—
"Grant to me, O Lord, to me whom Thou halt endowed,
in sending me on earth, with free will, the grace that in this year
which we are now beginning I may never relax this constant attention,
and not shamefully give up the examination of my conscience which I
have hitherto made. Give me strength to increase the attention which I
turn upon my own life, and to diminish that which I turn upon the life
of others; strengthen my will that it may become powerful to command
the desires of the body and the waverings of the soul; give me a pious
conscience entirely devoted to Thy celestial kingdom, that I may
always belong to Thee, or after failing, may be able to return to Thee."
Sand was right in praying to God for the year 1817,
and his fears were a presentiment: the skies of Germany, lightened by
Leipzig and Waterloo, were once more darkened; to the colossal and
universal despotism of Napoleon succeeded the individual oppression of
those little princes who made up the Germanic Diet, and all that the
nations had gained by overthrowing the giant was to be governed by
dwarfs. This was the time when secret societies were organised
throughout Germany; let us say a few words about them, for the history
that we are writing is not only that of individuals, but also that of
nations, and every time that occasion presents itself we will give our
little picture a wide horizon.
The secret societies of Germany, of which, without
knowing them, we have all heard, seem, when we follow them up, like
rivers, to originate in some sort of affiliation to those famous clubs
of the 'illumines' and the freemasons which made so much stir in
France at the close of the eighteenth century. At the time of the
revolution of '89 these different philosophical, political, and
religious sects enthusiastically accepted the republican doctrines,
and the successes of our first generals have often been attributed to
the secret efforts of the members. When Bonaparte, who was acquainted
with these groups, and was even said to have belonged to them,
exchanged his general's uniform for an emperor's cloak, all of them,
considering him as a renegade and traitor, not only rose against him
at home, but tried to raise enemies against him abroad; as they
addressed themselves to noble and generous passions, they found a
response, and princes to whom their results might be profitable seemed
for a moment to encourage them. Among others, Prince Louis of Prussia
was grandmaster of one of these societies.
The attempted murder by Stops, to which we have
already referred, was one of the thunderclaps of the storm; but its
morrow brought the peace of Vienna, and the degradation of Austria was
the death-blow of the old Germanic organisation. These societies,
which had received a mortal wound in 1806 and were now controlled by
the French police, instead of continuing to meet in public, were
forced to seek new members in the dark. In 1811 several agents of
these societies were arrested in Berlin, but the Prussian authorities,
following secret orders of Queen Louisa, actually protected them, so
that they were easily able to deceive the French police about their
intentions. About February 1815 the disasters of the French army
revived the courage of these societies, for it was seen that God was
helping their cause: the students in particular joined
enthusiastically in the new attempts that were now begun; many
colleges enrolled themselves almost entire, anal chose their
principals and professors as captains; the poet, Korner, killed on the
18th of October at Liegzig, was the hero of this campaign.
The triumph of this national movement, which twice
carried the Prussian army—largely composed of volunteers—to Paris, was
followed, when the treaties of 1815 and the new Germanic constitution
were made known, by a terrible reaction in Germany. All these young
men who, exiled by their princes, had risen in the name of liberty,
soon perceived that they had been used as tools to establish European
despotism; they wished to claim the promises that had been made, but
the policy of Talleyrand and Metternich weighed on them, and
repressing them at the first words they uttered, compelled them to
shelter their discontent and their hopes in the universities, which,
enjoying a kind of constitution of their own, more easily escaped the
investigations made by the spies of the Holy Alliance; but, repressed
as they were, these societies continued nevertheless to exist, and
kept up communications by means of travelling students, who, bearing
verbal messages, traversed Germany under the pretence of botanising,
and, passing from mountain to mountain, sowed broadcast those luminous
and hopeful words of which peoples are always greedy and kings always
fear.
We have seen that Sand, carried away by the general
movement, had gone through the campaign of 1815 as a volunteer,
although he was then only nineteen years old. On his return, he, like
others, had found his golden hopes deceived, and it is from this
period that we find his journal assuming the tone of mysticism and
sadness which our readers must have remarked in it. He soon entered
one of these associations, the Teutonia; and from that moment,
regarding the great cause which he had taken up as a religious one, he
attempted to make the conspirators worthy of their enterprise, and
thus arose his attempts to inculcate moral doctrines, in which he
succeeded with some, but failed with the majority. Sand had succeeded,
however, in forming around him a certain circle of Puritans, composed
of about sixty to eighty students, all belonging to the group of the 'Burschenschaft'
which continued its political and religious course despite all the
jeers of the opposing group—the 'Landmannschaft'. One of his friends
called Dittmar and he were pretty much the chiefs, and although no
election had given them their authority, they exercised so much
influence upon what was decided that in any particular case their
fellow-adepts were sure spontaneously to obey any impulse that they
might choose to impart. The meetings of the Burschen took place upon a
little hill crowned by a ruined castle, which was situated at some
distance from Erlangen, and which Sand and Dittmar had called the
Ruttli, in memory of the spot where Walter Furst, Melchthal, and
Stauffacher had made their vow to deliver their country; there, under
the pretence of students' games, while they built up a new house with
the ruined fragments, they passed alternately from symbol to action
and from action to symbol.
Meanwhile the association was making such advances
throughout Germany that not only the princes and kings of the German
confederation, but also the great European powers, began to be uneasy.
France sent agents to bring home reports, Russia paid agents on the
spot, and the persecutions that touched a professor and exasperated a
whole university often arose from a note sent by the Cabinet of the
Tuileries or of St. Petersburg.
It was amid the events that began thus that Sand,
after commending himself to the protection of God, began the year
1817, in the sad mood in which we have just seen him, and in which he
was kept rather by a disgust for things as they were than by a disgust
for life. On the 8th of May, preyed upon by this melancholy, which he
cannot conquer, and which comes from the disappointment of all his
political hopes, he writes in his diary:
"I shall find it impassible to set seriously to
work, and this idle temper, this humour of hypochondria which casts
its black veil over everything in life,—continues and grows in spite
of the moral activity which I imposed on myself yesterday."
In the holidays, fearing to burden his parents with
any additional expense, he will not go home, and prefers to make a
walking tour with his friends. No doubt this tour, in addition to its
recreative side, had a political aim. Be that as it may, Sand's diary,
during the period of his journey, shows nothing but the names of the
towns through which he passed. That we may have a notion of Sand's
dutifulness to his parents, it should be said that he did not set out
until he had obtained his mother's permission. On their return, Sand,
Dittmar, and their friends the Burschen, found their Ruttli sacked by
their enemies of the Landmannschaft; the house that they had built was
demolished and its fragments dispersed. Sand took this event for an
omen, and was greatly depressed by it.
"It seems to me, O my God!" he says in his journal,
"that everything swims and turns around me. My soul grows darker and
darker; my moral strength grows less instead of greater; I work and
cannot achieve; walk towards my aim and do not reach it; exhaust
myself, and do nothing great. The days of life flee one after another;
cares and uneasiness increase; I see no haven anywhere for our sacred
German cause. The end will be that we shall fall, for I myself waver.
O Lord and Father! protect me, save me, and lead me to that land from
which we are for ever driven back by the indifference of wavering
spirits."
About this time a terrible event struck Sand to the
heart; his friend Dittmar was drowned. This is what he wrote in his
diary on the very morning of the occurrence:
"Oh, almighty God! What is going to become of me?
For the last fortnight I have been drawn into disorder, and have not
been able to compel myself to look fixedly either backward or forward
in my life, so that from the 4th of June up to the present hour my
journal has remained empty. Yet every day I might have had occasion to
praise Thee, O my God, but my soul is in anguish. Lord, do not turn
from me; the more are the obstacles the more need is there of strength."
In the evening he added these few words to the
lines that he had written in the morning:—
"Desolation, despair, and death over my friend,
over my very deeply loved Dittmar."
This letter which he wrote to his family contains
the account of the tragic event:—
"You know that when my best friends, A., C., and
Z., were gone, I became particularly intimate with my well-beloved
Dittmar of Anspach; Dittmar, that is to say a true and worthy German,
an evangelical Christian, something more, in short, than a man! An
angelic soul, always turned toward the good, serene, pious, and ready
for action; he had come to live in a room next to mine in Professor
Grunler's house; we loved each other, upheld each other in our efforts,
and, well or ill, bare our good or evil fortune in common. On this
last spring evening, after having worked in his room and having
strengthened ourselves anew to resist all the torments of life and to
advance towards the aim that we desired to attain; we went, about
seven in the evening, to the baths of Redwitz. A very black storm was
rising in the sky, but only as yet appeared on the horizon. E., who
was with us, proposed to go home, but Dittmar persisted, saying that
the canal was but a few steps away. God permitted that it should not
be I who replied with these fatal words. So he went on. The sunset was
splendid: I see it still; its violet clouds all fringed with gold, for
I remember the smallest details of that evening.
"Dittmar went down first; he was the only one of us
who knew how to swim; so he walked before us to show us the depth. The
water was about up to our chests, and he, who preceded us, was up to
his shoulders, when he warned us not to go farther, because he was
ceasing to feel the bottom. He immediately gave up his footing and
began to swim, but scarcely had he made ten strokes when, having
reached the place where the river separates into two branches, he
uttered a cry, and as he was trying to get a foothold, disappeared. We
ran at once to the bank, hoping to be able to help him more easily;
but we had neither poles nor ropes within reach, and, as I have told
you, neither of us could swim. Then we called for help with all our
might. At that moment Dittmar reappeared, and by an unheard-of effort
seized the end of a willow branch that was hanging over the water; but
the branch was not strong enough to resist, and our friend sank again,
as though he had been struck by apoplexy. Can you imagine the state in
which we were, we his friends, bending over the river, our fixed and
haggard eyes trying to pierce its depth? My God, my God! how was it we
did not go mad?
"A great crowd, however, had run at our cries. For
two hours they sought far him with boats and drag-hooks; and at last
they succeeded in drawing his body from the gulf. Yesterday we bore it
solemnly to the field of rest.
"Thus with the end of this spring has begun the
serious summer of my life. I greeted it in a grave and melancholy mood,
and you behold me now, if not consoled, at least strengthened by
religion, which, thanks to the merits of Christ, gives me the
assurance of meeting my friend in heaven, from the heights of which he
will inspire me with strength to support the trials of this life; and
now I do not desire anything more except to know you free from all
anxiety in regard to me."
Instead of serving to unite the two groups of
students in a common grief, this accident, on the contrary, did but
intensify their hatred of each other. Among the first persons who ran
up at the cries of Sand and his companion was a member of the
Landmannschaft who could swim, but instead of going to Dittmar's
assistance he exclaimed, "It seems that we shall get rid of one of
these dogs of Burschen; thank God!" Notwithstanding this manifestation
of hatred, which, indeed, might be that of an individual and not of
the whole body, the Burschen invited their enemies to be present at
Dittmar's funeral. A brutal refusal, and a threat to disturb the
ceremony by insults to the corpse, formed their sole reply. The
Burschen then warned the authorities, who took suitable measures, and
all Dittmar's friends followed his coffin sword in hand. Beholding
this calm but resolute demonstration, the Landmannschaft did not dare
to carry out their threat, and contented themselves with insulting the
procession by laughs and songs.
Sand wrote in his journal:
"Dittmar is a great loss to all of us, and
particularly to me; he gave me the overflow of his strength and life;
he stopped, as it were, with an embankment, the part of my character
that is irresolute and undecided. From him it is that I have learned
not to dread the approaching storm, and to know how to fight and die."
Some days after the funeral Sand had a quarrel
about Dittmar with one of his former friends, who had passed over from
the Burschen to the Landmannschaft, and who had made himself
conspicuous at the time of the funeral by his indecent hilarity. It
was decided that they should fight the next day, and on the same day
Sand wrote in his journal.
"To-morrow I am to fight with P. G.; yet Thou
knowest, O my God, what great friends we formerly were, except for a
certain mistrust with which his coldness always inspired me; but on
this occasion his odious conduct has caused me to descend from the
tenderest pity to the profoundest hatred.
"My God, do not withdraw Thy hand either from him
or from me, since we are both fighting like men! Judge only by our two
causes, and give the victory to that which is the more just. If Thou
shouldst call me before Thy supreme tribunal, I know very well that I
should appear burdened with an eternal malediction; and indeed it is
not upon myself that I reckon but upon the merits of our Saviour Jesus
Christ.
"Come what may, be praised and blessed, O my God!
"My dear parents, brothers, and friends, I commend
you to the protection of God."
Sand waited in vain for two hours next day: his
adversary did not come to the meeting place.
The loss of Dittmar, however, by no means produced
the result upon Sand that might have been expected, and that he
himself seems to indicate in the regrets he expressed for him.
Deprived of that strong soul upon which he rested, Sand understood
that it was his task by redoubled energy to make the death of Dittmar
less fatal to his party. And indeed he continued singly the work of
drawing in recruits which they had been carrying on together, and the
patriotic conspiracy was not for a moment impeded.
The holidays came, and Sand left Erlangen to return
no more. From Wonsiedel he was to proceed to Jena, in order to
complete his theological studies there. After some days spent with his
family, and indicated in his journal as happy, Sand went to his new
place of abode, where he arrived some time before the festival of the
Wartburg. This festival, established to celebrate the anniversary of
the battle of Leipzig, was regarded as a solemnity throughout Germany,
and although the princes well knew that it was a centre for the annual
renewal of affiliation to the various societies, they dared not forbid
it. Indeed, the manifesto of the Teutonic Association was exhibited at
this festival and signed by more than two thousand deputies from
different universities in Germany. This was a day of joy for Sand; for
he found in the midst of new friends a great number of old ones.
The Government, however, which had not 'dared to
attack the Association by force, resolved to undermine it by opinion.
M. de Stauren published a terrible document, attacking the societies,
and founded, it was said, upon information furnished by Kotzebue. This
publication made a great stir, not only at Jena, but throughout all
Germany. Here is the trace of this event that we find in Sand's
journal:—
24th November "Today, after working with much ease
and assiduity, I went out about four with E. As we crossed the market-place
we heard Kotzebue's new and venomous insult read. By what a fury that
man is possessed against the Burschen and against all who love Germany!"
Thus far the first time and in these terms Sand's
journal presents the name of the man who, eighteen months later, he
was to slay.
The Government, however, which had not 'dared to
attack the Association by force, resolved to undermine it by opinion.
M. de Stauren published a terrible document, attacking the societies,
and founded, it was said, upon information furnished by Kotzebue. This
publication made a great stir, not only at Jena, but throughout all
Germany. Here is the trace of this event that we find in Sand's
journal:
24th November
"To-day, after working with much ease and assiduity,
I went out about four with E. As we crossed the market-place we heard
Kotzebue's new and venomous insult read. By what a fury that man is
possessed against the Burschen and against all who love Germany!"
Thus for the first time and in these terms Sand's
journal presents the name of the man who, eighteen months later, he
was to slay.
On the 29th, in the evening, Sand writes again:
"To-morrow I shall set out courageously and
joyfully from this place for a pilgrimage to Wonsiedel; there I shall
find my large-hearted mother and my tender sister Julia; there I shall
cool my head and warm my heart. Probably I shall be present at my good
Fritz's marriage with Louisa, and at the baptism of my very dear
Durchmith's first-born. God, O my Father, as Thou hast been with me
during my sad course, be with me still on my happy road."
This journey did in fact greatly cheer Sand. Since
Dittmar's death his attacks of hypochondria had disappeared. While
Dittmar lived he might die; Dittmar being dead, it was his part to
live.
On the 11th of December he left Wonsiedel, to
return to Jena, and on the 31st of the same month he wrote this prayer
in his journal.
"O merciful Saviour! I began this year with prayer,
and in these last days I have been subject to distraction and ill-disposed.
When I look backward, I find, alas! that I have not become better; but
I have entered more profoundly into life, and, should occasion present,
I now feel strength to act.
"It is because Thou hast always been with me, Lord,
even when I was not with Thee."
If our readers have followed with some attention
the different extracts from the journal that we have placed before
them, they must have seen Sand's resolution gradually growing stronger
and his brain becoming excited. From the beginning of the year 1818,
one feels his view, which long was timid and wandering, taking in a
wider horizon and fixing itself on a nobler aim. He is no longer
ambitious of the pastor's simple life or of the narrow influence which
he might gain in a little community, and which, in his juvenile
modesty, had seemed the height of good fortune and happiness; it is
now his native land, his German people, nay, all humanity, which he
embraces in his gigantic plans of political regeneration. Thus, on the
flyleaf of his journal for the year 1818, he writes:
"Lord, let me strengthen myself in the idea that I
have conceived of the deliverance of humanity by the holy sacrifice of
Thy Son. Grant that I may be a Christ of Germany, and that, like and
through Jesus, I may be strong and patient in suffering."
But the anti-republican pamphlets of Kotzebue
increased in number and gained a fatal influence upon the minds of
rulers. Nearly all the persons who were attacked in these pamphlets
were known and esteemed at Jena; and it may easily be comprehended
what effects were produced by such insults upon these young heads and
noble hearts, which carried conviction to the paint of blindness and
enthusiasm to that of fanaticism.
Thus, here is what Sand wrote in his diary on the
5th of May.
"Lord, what causes this melancholy anguish which
has again taken possession of me? But a firm and constant will
surmounts everything, and the idea of the country gives joy and
courage to the saddest and the weakest. When I think of that, I am
always amazed that there is none among us found courageous enough to
drive a knife into the breast of Kotzebue or of any other traitor."
Still dominated by the same thought, he continues
thus on the 18th of May:—
"A man is nothing in comparison with a nation; he
is a unity compared with millions, a minute compared with a century. A
man, whom nothing precedes and nothing follows, is born, lives, and
dies in a longer or shorter time, which, relatively to eternity,
hardly equals the duration of a lightning flash. A nation, on the
contrary, is immortal."
From time to time, however, amid these thoughts
that bear the impress of that political fatality which was driving him
towards the deed of bloodshed, the kindly and joyous youth reappears.
On the 24th of June he writes to his mother:—
"I have received your long and beautiful letter,
accompanied by the very complete and well-chosen outfit which you send
me. The sight of this fine linen gave me back one of the joys of my
childhood. These are fresh benefits. My prayers never remain
unfulfilled, and I have continual cause to thank you and God. I
receive, all at once, shirts, two pairs of fine sheets, a present of
your work, and of Julia's and Caroline's work, dainties and sweetmeats,
so that I am still jumping with joy and I turned three times on my
heels when I opened the little parcel. Receive the thanks of my heart,
and share, as giver, in the joy of him who has received.
"Today, however, is a very serious day, the last
day of spring and the anniversary of that on which I lost my noble and
good Dittmar. I am a prey to a thousand different and confused
feelings; but I have only two passions left in me which remain upright
and like two pillars of brass support this whole chaos—the thought of
God and the love of my country."
During all this time Sand's life remains apparently
calm and equal; the inward storm is calmed; he rejoices in his
application to work and his cheerful temper. However, from time to
time, he makes great complaints to himself of his propensity to love
dainty food, which he does not always find it possible to conquer.
Then, in his self-contempt, he calls himself "fig-stomach" or "cake-stomach."
But amid all this the religious and political exaltation and visits
all the battlefields near to the road that he follows. On the 18th of
October he is back at Jena, where he resumes his studies with more
application than ever. It is among such university studies that the
year 1818 closes far him, and we should hardly suspect the terrible
resolution which he has taken, were it not that we find in his journal
this last note, dated the 31st of December:
"I finish the last day of this year 1818, then, in
a serious and solemn mood, and I have decided that the Christmas feast
which has just gone by will be the last Christmas feast that I shall
celebrate. If anything is to come of our efforts, if the cause of
humanity is to assume the upper hand in our country, if in this
faithless epoch any noble feelings can spring up afresh and make way,
it can only happen if the wretch, the traitor, the seducer of youth,
the infamous Kotzebue, falls! I am fully convinced of this, and until
I have accomplished the work upon which I have resolved, I shall have
no rest. Lord, Thou who knowest that I have devoted my life to this
great action, I only need, now that it is fixed in my mind, to beg of
Thee true firmness and courage of soul."
Here Sand's diary ends; he had begun it to
strengthen himself; he had reached his aim; he needed nothing more.
From this moment he was occupied by nothing but this single idea, and
he continued slowly to mature the plan in his head in order to
familiarise himself with its execution; but all the impressions
arising from this thought remained in his own mind, and none was
manifested on the surface. To everyone else he was the same; but for
some little time past, a complete and unaltered serenity, accompanied
by a visible and cheerful return of inclination towards life, had been
noticed in him. He had made no charge in the hours or the duration of
his studies; but he had begun to attend the anatomical classes very
assiduously. One day he was seen to give even more than his customary
attention to a lesson in which the professor was demonstrating the
various functions of the heart; he examined with the greatest care the
place occupied by it in the chest, asking to have some of the
demonstrations repeated two or three times, and when he went out,
questioning some of the young men who were following the medical
courses, about the susceptibility of the organ, which cannot receive
ever so slight a blow without death ensuing from that blow: all this
with so perfect an indifference and calmness that no one about him
conceived any suspicion.
Another day, A. S., one of his friends, came into
his room. Sand, who had heard him coming up, was standing by the table,
with a paper-knife in his hand, waiting for him; directly the visitor
came in, Sand flung himself upon him, struck him lightly on the
forehead; and then, as he put up his hands to ward off the blow,
struck him rather more violently in the chest; then, satisfied with
this experiment, said:—
"You see, when you want to kill a man, that is the
way to do it; you threaten the face, he puts up his hands, and while
he does so you thrust a dagger into his heart."
The two young men laughed heartily over this
murderous demonstration, and A. S. related it that evening at the wine-shop
as one of the peculiarities of character that were common in his
friend. After the event, the pantomime explained itself.
The month of March arrived. Sand became day by day
calmer, more affectionate, and kinder; it might be thought that in the
moment of leaving his friends for ever he wished to leave them an
ineffaceable remembrance of him. At last he announced that on account
of several family affairs he was about to undertake a little journey,
and set about all his preparations with his usual care, but with a
serenity never previously seen in him. Up to that time he had
continued to work as usual, not relaxing for an instant; for there was
a possibility that Kotzebue might die or be killed by somebody else
before the term that Sand had fixed to himself, and in that case he
did not wish to have lost time. On the 7th of March he invited all his
friends to spend the evening with him, and announced his departure for
the next day but one, the 9th. All of them then proposed to him to
escort him for some leagues, but Sand refused; he feared lest this
demonstration, innocent though it were, might compromise them later on.
He set forth alone, therefore, after having hired his lodgings for
another half-year, in order to obviate any suspicion, and went by way
of Erfurt and Eisenach, in order to visit the Wartburg. From that
place he went to Frankfort, where he slept on the 17th, and on the
morrow he continued his journey by way of Darmstadt. At last, on the
23rd, at nine in the morning, he arrived at the top of the little hill
where we found him at the beginning of this narrative. Throughout the
journey he had been the amiable and happy young man whom no one could
see without liking.
Having reached Mannheim, he took a room at the
Weinberg, and wrote his name as "Henry" in the visitors' list. He
immediately inquired where Kotzebue lived. The councillor dwelt near
the church of the Jesuits; his house was at the corner of a street,
and though Sand's informants could not tell him exactly the letter,
they assured him it was not possible to mistake the house. [At
Mannheim houses are marked by letters, not by numbers.]
Sand went at once to Kotzebue's house: it was about
ten o'clock; he was told that the councillor went to walk for an hour
or two every morning in the park of Mannheim. Sand inquired about the
path in which he generally walked, and about the clothes he wore, for
never having seen him he could only recognise him by the description.
Kotzebue chanced to take another path. Sand walked about the park for
an hour, but seeing no one who corresponded to the description given
him, went back to the house.
Kotzebue had come in, but was at breakfast and
could not see him.
Sand went back to the Weinberg, and sat down to the
midday table d'hote, where he dined with an appearance of such
calmness, and even of such happiness, that his conversation, which was
now lively, now simple, and now dignified, was remarked by everybody.
At five in the afternoon he returned a third time to the house of
Kotzebue, who was giving a great dinner that day; but orders had been
given to admit Sand. He was shown into a little room opening out of
the anteroom, and a moment after, Kotzebue came in.
Sand then performed the drama which he had
rehearsed upon his friend A. S. Kotzebue, finding his face threatened,
put his hands up to it, and left his breast exposed; Sand at once
stabbed him to the heart; Kotzebue gave one cry, staggered, and fell
back into an arm-chair: he was dead.
At the cry a little girl of six years old ran in,
one of those charming German children, with the faces of cherubs,
blue-eyed, with long flowing hair. She flung herself upon the body of
Kotzebue, calling her father with piercing cries. Sand, standing at
the door, could not endure this sight, and without going farther, he
thrust the dagger, still covered with Kotzebue's blood, up to the hilt
into his own breast. Then, seeing to his surprise that notwithstanding
the terrible wound—he had just given himself he did not feel the
approach of death, and not wishing to fall alive into the hands of the
servants who were running in, he rushed to the staircase. The persons
who were invited were just coming in; they, seeing a young man, pale
and bleeding with a knife in his breast, uttered loud cries, and stood
aside, instead of stopping him. Sand therefore passed down the
staircase and reached the street below; ten paces off, a patrol was
passing, on the way to relieve the sentinels at the castle; Sand
thought these men had been summoned by the cries that followed him; he
threw himself on his knees in the middle of the street, and said, "Father,
receive my soul!"
Then, drawing the knife from the wound, he gave
himself a second blow below the former, and fell insensible.
Sand was carried to the hospital and guarded with
the utmost strictness; the wounds were serious, but, thanks to the
skill of the physicians who were called in, were not mortal; one of
them even healed eventually; but as to the second, the blade having
gone between the costal pleura and the pulmonary pleura, an effusion
of blood occurred between the two layers, so that, instead of closing
the wound, it was kept carefully open, in order that the blood
extravasated during the night might be drawn off every morning by
means of a pump, as is done in the operation for empyaemia.
Notwithstanding these cares, Sand was for three
months between life and death.
When, on the 26th of March, the news of Kotzebue's
assassination came from Mannheim to Jena, the academic senate caused
Sand's room to be opened, and found two letters—one addressed to his
friends of the Burschenschaft, in which he declared that he no longer
belonged to their society, since he did not wish that their
brotherhood should include a man about to die an the scaffold. The
other letter, which bore this superscription, "To my nearest and
dearest," was an exact account of what he meant to do, and the motives
which had made him determine upon this act. Though the letter is a
little long, it is so solemn and so antique in spirit, that we do not
hesitate to present it in its entirety to our readers:—
"To all my own
"Loyal and eternally cherished souls
"Why add still further to your sadness? I asked
myself, and I hesitated to write to you; but my silence would have
wounded the religion of the heart; and the deeper a grief the more it
needs, before it can be blotted out, to drain to the dregs its cup of
bitterness. Forth from my agonised breast, then; forth, long and cruel
torment of a last conversation, which alone, however, when sincere,
can alleviate the pain of parting.
"This letter brings you the last farewell of your
son and your brother.
"The greatest misfortune of life far any generous
heart is to see the cause of God stopped short in its developments by
our fault; and the most dishonouring infamy would be to suffer that
the fine things acquired bravely by thousands of men, and far which
thousands of men have joyfully sacrificed themselves, should be no
more than a transient dream, without real and positive consequences.
The resurrection of our German life was begun in these last twenty
years, and particularly in the sacred year 1813, with a courage
inspired by God. But now the house of our fathers is shaken from the
summit to the base. Forward! let us raise it, new and fair, and such
as the true temple of the true God should be.
"Small is the number of those who resist, and who
wish to oppose themselves as a dyke against the torrent of the
progress of higher humanity among the German people. Why should vast
whole masses bow beneath the yoke of a perverse minority? And why,
scarcely healed, should we fall back into a worse disease than that
which we are leaving behind?
"Many of these seducers, and those are the most
infamous, are playing the game of corruption with us; among them is
Kotzebue, the most cunning and the worst of all, a real talking
machine emitting all sorts of detestable speech and pernicious advice.
His voice is skillful in removing from us all anger and bitterness
against the most unjust measures, and is just such as kings require to
put us to sleep again in that old hazy slumber which is the death of
nations. Every day he odiously betrays his country, and nevertheless,
despite his treason, remains an idol for half Germany, which, dazzled
by him, accepts unresisting the poison poured out by him in his
periodic pamphlets, wrapped up and protected as he is by the seductive
mantle of a great poetic reputation. Incited by him, the princes of
Germany, who have forgotten their promises, will allow nothing free or
good to be accomplished; or if anything of the kind is accomplished in
spite of them, they will league themselves with the French to
annihilate it. That the history of our time may not be covered with
eternal ignominy, it is necessary that he should fall.
"I have always said that if we wish to find a great
and supreme remedy for the state of abasement in which we are, none
must shrink from combat nor from suffering; and the real liberty of
the German people will only be assured when the good citizen sets
himself or some other stake upon the game, and when every true son of
the country, prepared for the struggle for justice, despises the good
things of this world, and only desires those celestial good things
which death holds in charge.
"Who then will strike this miserable hireling, this
venal traitor?
"I have long been waiting in fear, in prayer, and
in tears—I who am not born for murder—for some other to be beforehand
with me, to set me free, and suffer me to continue my way along the
sweet and peaceful path that I had chosen for myself. Well, despite my
prayers and my tears, he who should strike does not present himself;
indeed, every man, like myself, has a right to count upon some other,
and everyone thus counting, every hour's delay, but makes our state
worse; far at any moment—and how deep a shame would that be for us!
Kotzebue may leave Germany, unpunished, and go to devour in Russia the
treasures for which he has exchanged his honour, his conscience, and
his German name. Who can preserve us from this shame, if every man, if
I myself, do not feel strength to make myself the chosen instrument of
God's justice? Therefore, forward! It shall be I who will courageously
rush upon him (do not be alarmed), on him, the loathsome seducer; it
shall be I who will kill the traitor, so that his misguiding voice,
being extinguished, shall cease to lead us astray from the lessons of
history and from the Spirit of God. An irresistible and solemn duty
impels me to this deed, ever since I have recognised to what high
destinies the German; nation may attain during this century, and ever
since I have come to know the dastard and hypocrite who alone prevents
it from reaching them; for me, as for every German who seeks the
public good, this desire has became a strict and binding necessity.
May I, by this national vengeance, indicate to all upright and loyal
consciences where the true danger lies, and save our vilified and
calumniated societies from the imminent danger that threatens them!
May I, in short, spread terror among the cowardly and wicked, and
courage and faith among the good! Speeches and writings lead to
nothing; only actions work.
"I will act, therefore; and though driven violently
away from my fair dreams of the future, I am none the less full of
trust in God; I even experience a celestial joy, now that, like the
Hebrews when they sought the promised land, I see traced before me,
through darkness and death, that road at the end of which I shall have
paid my debt to my country.
"Farewell, then, faithful hearts: true, this early
separation is hard; true, your hopes, like my wishes, are disappointed;
but let us be consoled by the primary thought that we have done what
the voice of our country called upon us to do; that, you knew, is the
principle according to which I have always lived. You will doubtless
say among yourselves, 'Yes, thanks to our sacrifices, he had learned
to know life and to taste the joys of earth, and he seemed: deeply to
love his native country and the humble estate to which he was called'.
Alas, yes, that is true! Under your protection, and amid your
numberless sacrifices, my native land and life had become profoundly
dear to me. Yes, thanks to you, I have penetrated into the Eden of
knowledge, and have lived the free life of thought; thanks to you, I
have looked into history, and have then returned to my own conscience
to attach myself to the solid pillars of faith in the Eternal.
"Yes, I was to pass gently through this life as a
preacher of the gospel; yes, in my constancy to my calling I was to be
sheltered from the storms of this existence. But would that suffice to
avert the danger that threatens Germany? And you yourselves, in your
infinite lave, should you not rather push me on to risk my life for
the good of all? So many modern Greeks have fallen already to free
their country from the yoke of the Turks, and have died almost without
any result and without any hope; and yet thousands of fresh martyrs
keep up their courage and are ready to fall in their turn; and should
I, then, hesitate to die?
"That I do not recognise your love, or that your
love is but a trifling consideration with me, you will not believe.
What else should impel me to die if not my devotion to you and to
Germany, and the need of proving this devotion to my family and my
country?
"You, mother, will say, 'Why have I brought up a
son whom I loved and who loved me, for whom I have undergone a
thousand cares and toils, who, thanks to my prayers and my example,
was impressionable to good influences, and from whom, after my long
and weary course, I hoped to receive attentions like those which I
have given him? Why does he now abandon me?'
"Oh, my kind and tender mother! Yes, you will
perhaps say that; but could not the mother of anyone else say the same,
and everything go off thus in words when there is need to act for the
country? And if no one would act, what would become of that mother of
us all who is called Germany?
"But no; such complaints are far from you, you
noble woman! I understood your appeal once before, and at this present
hour, if no one came forward in the German cause, you yourself would
urge me to the fight. I have two brothers and two sisters before me,
all noble and loyal. They will remain to you, mother; and besides you
will have for sons all the children of Germany who love their country.
"Every man has a destiny which he has to accomplish:
mine is devoted to the action that I am about to undertake; if I were
to live another fifty years, I could not live more happily than I have
done lately. Farewell, mother: I commend you to the protection of God;
may He raise you to that joy which misfortunes can no longer trouble!
Take your grandchildren, to whom I should so much have liked to be a
loving friend, to the top of our beautiful mountains soon. There, on
that altar raised by the Lord Himself in the midst of Germany, let
them devote themselves, swearing to take up the sword as soon as they
have strength to lift it, and to lay it down only when our brethren
are all united in liberty, when all Germans, having a liberal
constitution; are great before the Lord, powerful against their
neighbours, and united among themselves.
"May my country ever raise her happy gaze to Thee,
Almighty Father! May Thy blessing fall abundantly upon her harvests
ready to be cut and her armies ready for battle, and recognising the
blessings that Thou host showered upon us, may the German nation ever
be first among nations to rise and uphold the cause of humanity, which
is Thy image upon earth!
"Your eternally attached son, brother and friend,
"JENA, the beginning of March, 1819."
Sand, who, as we have said, had at first been taken
to the hospital, was removed at the end of three months to the prison
at Mannheim, where the governor, Mr. G——, had caused a room to be
prepared for him. There he remained two months longer in a state of
extreme weakness: his left arm was completely paralysed; his voice was
very weak; every movement gave him horrible pain, and thus it was not
until the 11th of August—that is to say, five months after the event
that we have narrated—that he was able to write to his family the
following letter:—
"MY VERY DEAR PARENTS:—The grand-duke's commission
of inquiry informed me yesterday that it might be possible I should
have the intense joy of a visit from you, and that I might perhaps see
you here and embrace you—you, mother, and some of my brothers and
sisters.
"Without being surprised at this fresh proof of
your motherly love, I have felt an ardent remembrance reawaken of the
happy life that we spent gently together. Joy and grief, desire and
sacrifice, agitate my heart violently, and I have had to weigh these
various impulses one against the other, and with the force of reason,
in order to resume mastery of myself and to take a decision in regard
to my wishes.
"The balance has inclined in the direction of
sacrifice.
"You know, mother, how much joy and courage a look
from your eyes, daily intercourse with you, and your pious and high-minded
conversation, might bring me during my very short time. But you also
know my position, and you are too well acquainted with the natural
course of all these painful inquiries, not to feel as I do, that such
annoyance, continually recurring, would greatly trouble the pleasure
of our companionship, if it did not indeed succeed in entirely
destroying it. Then, mother, after the long and fatiguing journey that
you would be obliged to make in order to see me, think of the terrible
sorrow of the farewell when the moment came to part in this world. Let
us therefore abide by the sacrifice, according to God's will, and let
us yield ourselves only to that sweet community of thought which
distance cannot interrupt, in which I find my only joys, and which, in
spite of men, will always be granted us by the Lord, our Father.
"As for my physical state, I knew nothing about it.
You see, however, since at last I am writing to you myself, that I
have come past my first uncertainties. As for the rest, I know too
little of the structure of my own body to give any opinion as to what
my wounds may determine for it. Except that a little strength has
returned to me, its state is still the same, and I endure it calmly
and patiently; for God comes to my help, and gives me courage and
firmness. He will help me, believe me, to find all the joys of the
soul and to be strong in mind. Amen.
"May you live happy!—Your deeply respectful son,
A month after this letter came tender answers from
all the family. We will quote only that of Sand's mother, because it
completes the idea which the reader may have formed already of this
great-hearted woman, as her son always calls her.
"DEAR, INEXPRESSIBLY DEAR KARL,—How Sweet it was to
me to see the writing of your beloved hand after so long a time! No
journey would have been so painful and no road so long as to prevent
me from coming to you, and I would go, in deep and infinite love, to
any end of the earth in the mere hope of catching sight of you.
"But, as I well know both your tender affection and
your profound anxiety for me, and as you give me, so firmly and upon
such manly reflection, reasons against which I can say nothing, and
which I can but honour, it shall be, my well-beloved Karl, as you have
wished and decided. We will continue, without speech, to communicate
our thoughts; but be satisfied, nothing can separate us; I enfold you
in my soul, and my material thoughts watch over you.
"May this infinite love which upholds us,
strengthens us, and leads us all to a better life, preserve, dear Karl,
your courage and firmness.
"Farewell, and be invariably assured that I shall
never cease to love you strongly and deeply.
"Your faithful mother, who loves you to eternity."
Sand replied:—
"January 1820, from my isle of Patmos.
"In the middle of the month of September last year
I received, through the grand-duke's special commission of inquiry,
whose humanity you have already appreciated, your dear letters of the
end of August and the beginning of September, which had such magical
influence that they inundated me with joy by transporting me into the
inmost circle of your hearts.
"You, my tender father, you write to me on the
sixty-seventh anniversary of your birth, and you bless me by the
outpouring of your most tender love.
"You, my well-beloved mother, you deign to promise
the continuance of your maternal affection, in which I have at all
times constantly believed; and thus I have received the blessings of
both of you, which, in my present position, will exercise a more
beneficent influence upon me than any of the things that all the kings
of the earth, united together, could grant me. Yes, you strengthen me
abundantly by your blessed love, and I render thanks to you, my
beloved parents, with that respectful submission that my heart will
always inculcate as the first duty of a son.
"But the greater your love and the more
affectionate your letters, the more do I suffer, I must acknowledge,
from the voluntary sacrifice that we have imposed upon ourselves in
not seeing one another; and the only reason, my dear parents, why I
have delayed to reply to you, was to give myself time to recover the
strength which I have lost.
"You too, dear brother-in-law and dear sister,
assure me of your sincere and uninterrupted attachment. And yet, after
the fright that I have spread among you all, you seem not to know
exactly what to think of me; but my heart, full of gratitude for your
past kindness, comforts itself; for your actions speak and tell me
that, even if you wished no longer to love me as I love you, you would
not be able to do otherwise. These actions mean more to me at this
hour than any possible protestations, nay, than even the tenderest
words.
"And you also, my kind brother, you would have
consented to hurry with our beloved mother to the shores of the Rhine,
to this place where the real links of the soul were welded between us,
where we were doubly brothers; but tell me, are you not really here,
in thought and in spirit, when I consider the rich fountain of
consolation brought me by your cordial and tender letter?
"And, you, kind sister-in-law, as you showed
yourself from the first, in your delicate tenderness, a true sister,
so I find you again at present. There are still the same tender
relations, still the same sisterly affection; your consolations, which
emanate from a deep and submissive piety, have fallen refreshingly
into the depths of my heart. But, dear sister-in-law, I must tell you,
as well as the others, that you are too liberal towards me in
dispensing your esteem and praises, and your exaggeration has cast me
back face to face with my inmost judge, who has shown me in the mirror
of my conscience the image of my every weakness.
"You, kind Julia, you desire nothing else but to
save me from the fate that awaits me; and you assure me in your own
name and in that of you all, that you, like the others, would rejoice
to endure it in my place; in that I recognise you fully, and I
recognise, too, those sweet and tender relations in which we have been
brought up from childhood. Oh, be comforted, dear Julia; thanks to the
protection of God, I promise you: that it will be easy for me, much
easier than I should have thought, to bear what falls to my lot.
Receive, then, all of you, my warm and sincere thanks for having thus
rejoiced my heart.
"Now that I know from these strengthening letters
that, like the prodigal son, the love and goodness of my family are
greater on my return than at my departure, I will, as carefully as
possible, paint for you my physical and moral state, and I pray God to
supplement my words by His strength, so that my letter may contain an
equivalent of what yours brought to me, and may help you to reach that
state of calm and serenity to which I have myself attained.
"Hardened, by having gained power over myself,
against the good and ill of this earth, you knew already that of late
years I have lived only for moral joys, and I must say that, touched
by my efforts, doubtless, the Lord, who is the sacred fount of all
that is good, has rendered me apt in seeking them and in tasting them
to the full. God is ever near me, as formerly, and I find in Him the
sovereign principle of the creation of all things; in Him, our holy
Father, not only consolation and strength, but an unalterable Friend,
full of the holiest love, who will accompany me in all places where I
may need His consolations. Assuredly, if He had turned from me, or if
I had turned away my eyes from Him, I should now find myself very
unfortunate and wretched; but by His grace, on the contrary, lowly and
weak creature as I am, He makes me strong and powerful against
whatever can befall me.
"What I have hitherto revered as sacred, what I
have desired as good what I have aspired to as heavenly, has in no
respect changed now. And I thank God for it, for I should now be in
great despair if I were compelled to recognise that my heart had
adored deceptive images and enwrapped itself in fugitive chimeras.
Thus my faith in these ideas and my pure love far them, guardian
angels of my spirit as they are, increase moment by moment, and will
go on increasing to my end, and I hope that I may pass all the more
easily from this world into eternity. I pass my silent life in
Christian exaltation and humility, and I sometimes have those visions
from above through which I have, from my birth, adored heaven upon
earth, and which give me power to raise myself to the Lord upon the
eager wings of my prayers. My illness, though long, painful, and
cruel, has always been sufficiently mastered by my will to let me busy
myself to some result with history, positive sciences, and the finer
parts of religious education, and when my suffering became more
violent and for a time interrupted these occupations, I struggled
successfully, nevertheless, against ennui; for the memories of the
past, my resignation to the present, and my faith in the future were
rich enough and strong enough in me and round me to prevent my falling
from my terrestrial paradise. According to my principles, I would
never, in the position in which I am and in which I have placed myself,
have been willing to ask anything for my own comfort; but so much
kindness and care have been lavished upon me, with so much delicacy
and humanity,—which alas! I am unable to return—by every person with
whom I have been brought into contact, that wishes which I should not
have dared to frame in the mast private recesses of my heart have been
more than exceeded. I have never been so much overcome by bodily pains
that I could not say within myself, while I lifted my thoughts to
heaven, 'Come what may of this ray.' And great as these gains have
been, I could not dream of comparing them with those sufferings of the
soul that we feel so profoundly and poignantly in the recognition of
our weaknesses and faults.
"Moreover, these pains seldom now cause me to lose
consciousness; the swelling and inflammation never made great headway,
and the fever has always been moderate, though for nearly ten months I
have been forced to remain lying on my back, unable to raise myself,
and although more than forty pints of matter have come from my chest
at the place where the heart is. No, an the contrary, the wound,
though still open, is in a good state; and I owe that not only to the
excellent nursing around me, but also to the pure blood that I
received from you, my mother. Thus I have lacked neither earthly
assistance nor heavenly encouragement. Thus, on the anniversary of my
birth, I had every reason—oh, not to curse the hour in which I was
born, but, on the contrary, after serious contemplation of the world,
to thank God and you, my dear parents, for the life that you have
given me! I celebrated it, on the 18th of October, by a peaceful and
ardent submission to the holy will of God. On Christmas Day I tried to
put myself into the temper of children who are devoted to the Lord;
and with God's help the new year will pass like its predecessor, in
bodily pain, perhaps, but certainly in spiritual joy. And with this
wish, the only one that I form, I address myself to you, my dear
parents, and to you and yours, my dear brothers and sisters.
"I cannot hope to see a twenty-fifth new year; so
may the prayer that I have just made be granted! May this picture of
my present state afford you some tranquillity, and may this letter
that I write to you from the depths of my heart not only prove to you
that I am not unworthy of the inexpressible love that you all display,
but, on the contrary, ensure this love to me for eternity.
"Within the last few days I have also received your
dear letter of the 2nd of December, my kind mother, and the grind-duke's
commission has deigned to let me also read my kind brother's letter
which accompanied yours. You give me the best of news in regard to the
health of all of you, and send me preserved fruits from our dear home.
I thank you for them from the bottom of my heart. What causes me most
joy in the matter is that you have been solicitously busy about me in
summer as in winter, and that you and my dear Julia gathered them and
prepared them for me at home, and I abandon my whole soul to that
sweet enjoyment.
"I rejoice sincerely at my little cousin's coming
into the world; I joyfully congratulate the good parents and the
grandparents; I transport myself, for his baptism, into that beloved
parish, where I offer him my affection as his Christian brother, and
call down on him all the blessings of heaven.
"We shall be obliged, I think, to give up this
correspondence, so as not to inconvenience the grand-duke's commission.
I finish, therefore, by assuring you, once more, but for the last
time, perhaps, of my profound filial submission and of my fraternal
affection.—Your most tenderly attached
Indeed, from that moment all correspondence between
Karl and his family ceased, and he only wrote to them, when he knew
his fate, one more letter, which we shall see later on.
We have seen by what attentions Sand was surrounded;
their humanity never flagged for an instant. It is the truth, too,
that no one saw in him an ordinary murderer, that many pitied him
under their breath, and that some excused him aloud. The very
commission appointed by the grand-duke prolonged the affair as much as
possible; for the severity of Sand's wounds had at first given rise to
the belief that there would be no need of calling in the executioner,
and the commission was well pleased that God should have undertaken
the execution of the judgment. But these expectations were deceived:
the skill of the doctor defeated, not indeed the wound, but death:
Sand did not recover, but he remained alive; and it began to be
evident that it would be needful to kill him.
Indeed, the Emperor Alexander, who had appointed
Kotzebue his councillor, and who was under no misapprehension as to
the cause of the murder, urgently demanded that justice should take
its course. The commission of inquiry was therefore obliged to set to
work; but as its members were sincerely desirous of having some
pretext to delay their proceedings, they ordered that a physician from
Heidelberg should visit Sand and make an exact report upon his case;
as Sand was kept lying down and as he could not be executed in his bed,
they hoped that the physician's report, by declaring it impossible for
the prisoner to rise, would come to their assistance and necessitate a
further respite.
The chosen doctor came accordingly to Mannheim, and
introducing himself to Sand as though attracted by the interest that
he inspired, asked him whether he did not feel somewhat better, and
whether it would be impossible to rise. Sand looked at him for an
instant, and then said, with a smile—
"I understand, sir; they wish to know whether I am
strong enough to mount a scaffold: I know nothing about it myself, but
we will make the experiment together."
With these words he rose, and accomplishing, with
superhuman courage, what he had not attempted for fourteen months,
walked twice round the room, came back to his bed, upon which he
seated himself, and said:
"You see, sir, I am strong enough; it would
therefore be wasting precious time to keep my judges longer about my
affair; so let them deliver their judgment, for nothing now prevents
its execution."
The doctor made his report; there was no way of
retreat; Russia was becoming more and more pressing, and an the 5th of
May 1820 the high court of justice delivered the following judgment,
which was confirmed on the 12th by His Royal Highness the Grand-Duke
of Baden:
"In the matters under investigation and after
administration of the interrogatory and hearing the defences, and
considering the united opinions of the court of justice at Mannheim
and the further consultations of the court of justice which declare
the accused, Karl Sand of Wonsiedel, guilty of murder, even on his own
confession, upon the person of the Russian imperial Councillor of
State, Kotzebue; it is ordered accordingly, for his just punishment
and for an example that may deter other people, that he is to be put
from life to death by the sword.
"All the costs of these investigations, including
these occasioned by his public execution, will be defrayed from the
funds of the law department, on account of his want of means."
We see that, though it condemned the accused to
death, which indeed could hardly be avoided, the sentence was both in
form and substance as mild as possible, since, though Sand was
convicted, his poor family was not reduced by the expenses of a long
and costly trial to complete ruin.
Five days were still allowed to elapse, and the
verdict was not announced until the 17th. When Sand was informed that
two councillors of justice were at the door, he guessed that they were
coming to read his sentence to him; he asked a moment to rise, which
he had done but once before, in the instance already narrated, during
fourteen months. And indeed he was so weak that he could not stand to
hear the sentence, and after having greeted the deputation that death
sent to him, he asked to sit down, saying that he did so not from
cowardice of soul but from weakness of body; then he added, "You are
welcome, gentlemen; far I have suffered so much for fourteen months
past that you come to me as angels of deliverance."
He heard the sentence quite unaffectedly and with a
gentle smile upon his lips; then, when the reading was finished, he
said—
"I look for no better fate, gentlemen, and when,
more than a year ago, I paused on the little hill that overlooks the
town, I saw beforehand the place where my grave would be; and so I
ought to thank God and man far having prolonged my existence up to to-day."
The councillors withdrew; Sand stood up a second
time to greet them on their departure, as he had done on their
entrance; then he sat down again pensively in his chair, by which Mr.
G, the governor of the prison, was standing. After a moment of silence,
a tear appeared at each of the condemned man's eyelids, and ran down
his cheeks; then, turning suddenly to Mr. G——, whom he liked very much,
he said, "I hope that my parents would rather see me die by this
violent death than of some slow and shameful disease. As for me, I am
glad that I shall soon hear the hour strike in which my death will
satisfy those who hate me, and those wham, according to my principles,
I ought to hate."
Then he wrote to his family.
"17th of the month of spring, 1820.
"DEAR PARENTS, BROTHERS, AND SISTERS,—You should
have received my last letters through the grand-duke's commission; in
them I answered yours, and tried to console you for my position by
describing the state of my soul as it is, the contempt to which I have
attained for everything fragile and earthly, and by which one must
necessarily be overcome when such matters are weighed against the
fulfilment of an idea, or that intellectual liberty which alone can
nourish the soul; in a word, I tried to console you by the assurance
that the feelings, principles, and convictions of which I formerly
spoke are faithfully preserved in me and have remained exactly the
same; but I am sure all this was an unnecessary precaution on my part,
for there was never a time when you asked anything else of me than to
have God before my eyes and in my heart; and you have seen how, under
your guidance, this precept so passed into my soul that it became my
sole object of happiness for this world and the next; no doubt, as He
was in and near me, God will be in and near you at the moment when
this letter brings you the news of my sentence. I die willingly, and
the Lord will give me strength to die as one ought to die.
"I write to you perfectly quiet and calm about all
things, and I hope that your lives too will pass calmly and tranquilly
until the moment when our souls meet again full of fresh force to love
one another and to share eternal happiness together.
"As for me, such as I have lived as long as I have
known myself—that is to say, in a serenity full of celestial desires
and a courageous and indefatigable love of liberty, such I am about to
die.
"May God be with you and with me!—Your son, brother,
and friend,
From that moment his serenity remained untroubled;
during the whole day he talked more gaily than usual, slept well, did
not awake until half-past seven, said that he felt stronger, and
thanked God for visiting him thus.
The nature of the verdict had been known since the
day before, and it had been learned that the execution was fixed for
the 20th of May—that is to say, three full days after the sentence had
been read to the accused.
Henceforward, with Sand's permission, persons who
wished to speak to him and whom he was not reluctant to see, were
admitted: three among these paid him long and noteworthy visits.
One was Major Holzungen, of the Baden army, who was
in command of the patrol that had arrested him, or rather picked him
up, dying, and carried him to the hospital. He asked him whether he
recognised him, and Sand's head was so clear when he stabbed himself,
that although he saw the major only for a moment and had never seen
him again since, he remembered the minutest details of the costume
which he had been wearing fourteen months previously, and which was
the full-dress uniform. When the talk fell upon the death to which
Sand was to submit at so early an age, the major pitied him; but Sand
answered, with a smile, "There is only one difference between you and
me, major; it is that I shall die far my convictions, and you will die
for someone else's convictions."
After the major came a young student from Jena whom
Sand had known at the university. He happened to be in the duchy of
Baden and wished to visit him. Their recognition was touching, and the
student wept much; but Sand consoled him with his usual calmness and
serenity.
Then a workman asked to be admitted to see Sand, on
the plea that he had been his schoolfellow at Wonsiedel, and although
he did not remember his name, he ordered him to be let in: the workman
reminded him that he had been one of the little army that Sand had
commanded on the day of the assault of St. Catherine's tower. This
indication guided Sand, who recognised him perfectly, and then spoke
with tender affection of his native place and his dear mountains. He
further charged him to greet his family, and to beg his mother, father,
brothers, and sisters once more not to be grieved on his account,
since the messenger who undertook to deliver his last wards could
testify in how calm and joyful a temper he was awaiting death.
To this workman succeeded one of the guests whom
Sand had met on the staircase directly after Kotzebue's death. He
asked him whether he acknowledged his crime and whether he felt any
repentance. Sand replied, "I had thought about it during a whole year.
I have been thinking of it for fourteen months, and my opinion has
never varied in any respect: I did what I should have done."
After the departure of this last visitor, Sand sent
for Mr. G——, the governor of the prison, and told him that he should
like to talk to the executioner before the execution, since he wished
to ask for instructions as to how he should hold himself so as to
render the operation most certain and easy. Mr. G——made some
objections, but Sand insisted with his usual gentleness, and Mr. G——at
last promised that the man in question should be asked to call at the
prison as soon as he arrived from Heidelberg, where he lived.
The rest of the day was spent in seeing more
visitors and in philosophical and moral talks, in which Sand developed
his social and religious theories with a lucidity of expression and an
elevation of thought such as he had, perhaps, never before shown. The
governor of the prison from whom I heard these details, told me that
he should all his life regret that he did not know shorthand, so that
he might have noted all these thoughts, which would have formed a
pendant to the Phaedo.
Night came. Sand spent part of the evening writing;
it is thought that he was composing a poem; but no doubt he burned it,
for no trace of it was found. At eleven he went to bed, and slept
until six in the morning. Next day he bore the dressing of his wound,
which was always very painful, with extraordinary courage, without
fainting, as he sometimes did, and without suffering a single
complaint to escape him: he had spoken the truth; in the presence of
death God gave him the grace of allowing his strength to return. The
operation was over; Sand was lying down as usual, and Mr. G——was
sitting on the foot of his bed, when the door opened and a man came in
and bowed to Sand and to Mr. G——. The governor of the prison
immediately stood up, and said to Sand in a voice the emotion of which
he could not conceal, "The person who is bowing to you is Mr. Widemann
of Heidelberg, to whom you wished to speak."
Then Sand's face was lighted up by a strange joy;
he sat up and said, "Sir, you are welcome." Then, making his visitor
sit down by his bed, and taking his hand, he began to thank him for
being so obliging, and spoke in so intense a tone and so gentle a
voice, that Mr. Widemann, deeply moved, could not answer. Sand
encouraged him to speak and to give him the details for which he
wished, and in order to reassure him, said, "Be firm, sir; for I, on
my part, will not fail you: I will not move; and even if you should
need two or three strokes to separate my head from my body, as I am
told is sometimes the case, do not be troubled on that account."
Then Sand rose, leaning on Mr. G——, to go through
with the executioner the strange and terrible rehearsal of the drama
in which he was to play the leading part on the morrow. Mr. Widemann
made him sit in a chair and take the required position, and went into
all the details of the execution with him. Then Sand, perfectly
instructed, begged him not to hurry and to take his time. Then he
thanked him beforehand; "for," added he, "afterwards I shall not be
able." Then Sand returned to his bed, leaving the executioner paler
and more trembling than himself. All these details have been preserved
by Mr. G——; for as to the executioner, his emotion was so great that
he could remember nothing.
After Mr. Widemann, three clergymen were introduced,
with whom Sand conversed upon religious matters: one of them stayed
six hours with him, and on leaving him told him that he was
commissioned to obtain from him a promise of not speaking to the
people at the place of execution. Sand gave the promise, and added, "Even
if I desired to do so, my voice has become so weak that people could
not hear it."
Meanwhile the scaffold was being erected in the
meadow that extends on the left of the road to Heidelberg. It was a
platform five to six feet high and ten feet wide each way. As it was
expected that, thanks to the interest inspired by the prisoner and to
the nearness to Whitsuntide, the crowd would be immense, and as some
movement from the universities was apprehended, the prison guards had
been trebled, and General Neustein had been ordered to Mannheim from
Carlsruhe, with twelve hundred infantry, three hundred and fifty
cavalry, and a company of artillery with guns.
On, the afternoon of the 19th there arrived, as had
been foreseen, so many students, who took up their abode in the
neighbouring villages, that it was decided to put forward the hour of
the execution, and to let it take place at five in the morning instead
of at eleven, as had been arranged. But Sand's consent was necessary
for this; for he could not be executed until three full days after the
reading of his sentence, and as the sentence had not been read to him
till half-past ten Sand had a right to live till eleven o'clock.
Before four in the morning the officials went into
the condemned man's room; he was sleeping so soundly that they were
obliged to awaken him. He opened his eyes with a smile, as was his
custom, and guessing why they came, asked, "Can I have slept so well
that it is already eleven in the morning?" They told him that it was
not, but that they had come to ask his permission to put forward the
time; for, they told him, same collision between the students and the
soldiers was feared, and as the military preparations were very
thorough, such a collision could not be otherwise than fatal to his
friends. Sand answered that he was ready that very moment, and only
asked time enough to take a bath, as the ancients were accustomed to
do before going into battle. But as the verbal authorisation which he
had given was not sufficient, a pen and paper were given to Sand, and
he wrote, with a steady hand and in his usual writing:
"I thank the authorities of Mannheim for
anticipating my most eager wishes by making my execution six hours
earlier.
"Sit nomen Domini benedictum.
"From the prison room, May 20th, day of my
deliverance.
When Sand had given these two lines to the recorder,
the physician came to him to dress his wound, as usual. Sand looked at
him with a smile, and then asked, "Is it really worth the trouble?"
"You will be stronger for it," answered the
physician.
"Then do it," said Sand.
A bath was brought. Sand lay down in it, and had
his long and beautiful hair arranged with the greatest care; then his
toilet being completed, he put on a frock-coat of the German shape—that
is to say, short and with the shirt collar turned back aver the
shoulders, close white trousers, and high boots. Then Sand seated
himself on his bed and prayed some time in a low voice with the clergy;
then, when he had finished, he said these two lines of Korner's:
He next took leave of the physician and the priests,
saying to them, "Do not attribute the emotion of my voice to weakness
but to gratitude." Then, upon these gentlemen offering to accompany
him to the scaffold, he said, "There is no need; I am perfectly
prepared, at peace with God and with my conscience. Besides, am I not
almost a Churchman myself?" And when one of them asked whether he was
not going out of life in a spirit of hatred, he returned, "Why, good
heavens! have I ever felt any?"
An increasing noise was audible from the street,
and Sand said again that he was at their disposal and that he was
ready. At this moment the executioner came in with his two assistants;
he was dressed in a long wadded black coat, beneath which he hid his
sword. Sand offered him his hand affectionately; and as Mr. Widemann,
embarrassed by the sword which he wished to keep Sand from seeing, did
not venture to come forward, Sand said to him, "Come along and show me
your sword; I have never seen one of the kind, and am curious to know
what it is like."
Mr. Widemann, pale and trembling, presented the
weapon to him; Sand examined it attentively, and tried the edge with
his finger.
"Come," said he, "the blade is good; do not
tremble, and all will go well." Then, turning to Mr. G——, who was
weeping, he said to him, "You will be good enough, will you not, to do
me the service of leading me to the scaffold?"
Mr. G——made a sign of assent with his head, for he
could not answer. Sand took his arm, and spoke for the third time,
saying once more, "Well, what are you waiting for, gentlemen? I am
ready."
When they reached the courtyard, Sand saw all the
prisoners weeping at their windows. Although he had never seen them,
they were old friends of his; for every time they passed his door,
knowing that the student who had killed Kotzebue lay within, they used
to lift their chain, that he might not be disturbed by the noise.
All Mannheim was in the streets that led to the
place of execution, and many patrols were passing up and down. On the
day when the sentence was announced the whole town had been sought
through for a chaise in which to convey Sand to the scaffold, but no
one, not even the coach-builders, would either let one out or sell one;
and it had been necessary, therefore, to buy one at Heidelberg without
saying for what purpose.
Sand found this chaise in the courtyard, and got
into it with Mr. G——. Turning to him, he whispered in his ear, "Sir,
if you see me turn pale, speak my name to me, my name only, do you
hear? That will be enough."
The prison gate was opened, and Sand was seen; then
every voice cried with one impulse, "Farewell, Sand, farewell!"
And at the same time flowers, some of which fell
into the carriage, were thrown by the crowd that thronged the street,
and from the windows. At these friendly cries and at this spectacle,
Sand, who until then had shown no moment of weakness, felt tears
rising in spite of himself, and while he returned the greetings made
to him on all sides, he murmured in a low voice, "O my God, give me
courage!"
This first outburst over, the procession set out
amid deep silence; only now and again same single voice would call
out, "Farewell, Sand!" and a handkerchief waved by some hand that rose
out of the crowd would show from what paint the last call came. On
each side of the chaise walked two of the prison officials, and behind
the chaise came a second conveyance with the municipal authorities.
The air was very cold: it had rained all night, and
the dark and cloudy sky seemed to share in the general sadness. Sand,
too weak to remain sitting up, was half lying upon the shoulder of Mr.
G——-, his companion; his face was gentle, calm and full of pain; his
brow free and open, his features, interesting though without regular
beauty, seemed to have aged by several years during the fourteen
months of suffering that had just elapsed. The chaise at last reached
the place of execution, which was surrounded by a battalion of
infantry; Sand lowered his eyes from heaven to earth and saw the
scaffold. At this sight he smiled gently, and as he left the carriage
he said, "Well, God has given me strength so far."
The governor of the prison and the chief officials
lifted him that he might go up the steps. During that short ascent
pain kept him bowed, but when he had reached the top he stood erect
again, saying, "Here then is the place where I am to die!"
Then before he came to the chair on which he was to
be seated for the execution, he turned his eyes towards Mannheim, and
his gaze travelled over all the throng that surrounded him; at that
moment a ray of sunshine broke through the clouds. Sand greeted it
with a smile and sat down.
Then, as, according to the orders given, his
sentence was to be read to him a second time, he was asked whether he
felt strong enough to hear it standing. Sand answered that he would
try, and that if his physical strength failed him, his moral strength
would uphold him. He rose immediately from the fatal chair, begging Mr.
G——to stand near enough to support him if he should chance to stagger.
The precaution was unnecessary, Sand did not stagger.
After the judgment had been read, he sat down again
and said in a laud voice, "I die trusting in God."
But at these words Mr. G———interrupted him.
"Sand," said he, "what did you promise?"
"True," he answered; "I had forgotten." He was
silent, therefore, to the crowd; but, raising his right hand and
extending it solemnly in the air, he said in a low voice, so that he
might be heard only by those who were around him, "I take God to
witness that I die for the freedom of Germany."
Then, with these words, he did as Conradin did with
his glove; he threw his rolled-up handkerchief over the line of
soldiers around him, into the midst of the people.
Then the executioner came to cut off his hair; but
Sand at first objected.
"It is for your mother," said Mr. Widemann.
"On your honour, sir?" asked Sand.
"On my honour."
"Then do it," said Sand, offering his hair to the
executioner.
Only a few curls were cut off, those only which
fell at the back, the others were tied with a ribbon on the top of the
head. The executioner then tied his hands on his breast, but as that
position was oppressive to him and compelled him an account of his
wound to bend his head, his hands were laid flat on his thighs and
fixed in that position with ropes. Then, when his eyes were about to
be bound, he begged Mr. Widemann to place the bandage in such a manner
that he could see the light to his last moment. His wish was fulfilled.
Then a profound and mortal stillness hovered over
the whole crowd and surrounded the scaffold. The executioner drew his
sword, which flashed like lightning and fell. Instantly a terrible cry
rose at once from twenty thousand bosoms; the head had not fallen, and
though it had sunk towards the breast still held to the neck. The
executioner struck a second time, and struck off at the same blow the
head and a part of the hand.
In the same moment, notwithstanding the efforts of
the soldiers, their line was broken through; men and women rushed upon
the scaffold, the blood was wiped up to the last drop with
handkerchiefs; the chair upon which Sand had sat was broken and
divided into pieces, and those who could not obtain one, cut fragments
of bloodstained wood from the scaffold itself.
The head and body were placed in a coffin draped
with black, and carried back, with a large military escort, to the
prison. At midnight the body was borne silently, without torches or
lights, to the Protestant cemetery, in which Kotzebue had been buried
fourteen months previously. A grave had been mysteriously dug; the
coffin was lowered into it, and those who were present at the burial
were sworn upon the New Testament not to reveal the spot where Sand
was buried until such time as they were freed from their oath. Then
the grave was covered again with the turf, that had been skilfully
taken off, and that was relaid on the same spat, so that no new grave
could be perceived; then the nocturnal gravediggers departed, leaving
guards at the entrance.
There, twenty paces apart, Sand and Kotzebue rest:
Kotzebue opposite the gate in the most conspicuous spot of the
cemetery, and beneath a tomb upon which is engraved this inscription:
"The world persecuted him without pity, Calumny was
his sad portion, He found no happiness save in the arms of his wife,
And no repose save in the bosom of death. Envy dogged him to cover his
path with thorns, Love bade his roses blossom; May Heaven pardon him
As he pardons earth!"
In contrast with this tall and showy monument,
standing, as we have said, in the most conspicuous spot of the
cemetery, Sand's grave must be looked far in the corner to the extreme
left of the entrance gate; and a wild plum tree, some leaves of which
every passing traveller carries away, rises alone upon the grave,
which is devoid of any inscription.
As far the meadow in which Sand was executed, it is
still called by the people "Sand's Himmelsfartsweise," which signifies
"The manner of Sand's ascension."
Toward the end of September, 1838, we were at
Mannheim, where I had stayed three days in order to collect all the
details I could find about the life and death of Karl-Ludwig Sand. But
at the end of these three days, in spite of my active investigations,
these details still remained extremely incomplete, either because I
applied in the wrong quarters, or because, being a foreigner, I
inspired same distrust in those to whom I applied. I was leaving
Mannheim, therefore, somewhat disappointed, and after having visited
the little Protestant cemetery where Sand and Kotzebue are buried at
twenty paces from each other, I had ordered my driver to take the road
to Heidelberg, when, after going a few yards, he, who knew the object
of my inquiries, stopped of himself and asked me whether I should not
like to see the place where Sand was executed. At the same time he
pointed to a little mound situated in the middle of a meadow and a few
steps from a brook. I assented eagerly, and although the driver
remained on the highroad with my travelling companions, I soon
recognised the spot indicated, by means of some relics of cypress
branches, immortelles, and forget-me-nots scattered upon the earth. It
will readily be understood that this sight, instead of diminishing my
desire for information, increased it. I was feeling, then, more than
ever dissatisfied at going away, knowing so little, when I saw a man
of some five-and-forty to fifty years old, who was walking a little
distance from the place where I myself was, and who, guessing the
cause that drew me thither, was looking at me with curiosity. I
determined to make a last effort, and going up to him, I said, "Oh,
sir, I am a stranger; I am travelling to collect all the rich and
poetic traditions of your Germany. By the way in which you look at me,
I guess that you know which of them attracts me to this meadow. Could
you give me any information about the life and death of Sand?"
"With what object, sir?" the person to whom I spoke
asked me in almost unintelligible French.
"With a very German object, be assured, sir," I
replied. "From the little I have learned, Sand seems to me to be one
of those ghosts that appear only the greater and the more poetic for
being wrapped in a shroud stained with blood. But he is not known in
France; he might be put on the same level there with a Fieschi or a
Meunier, and I wish, to the best of my ability, to enlighten the minds
of my countrymen about him."
"It would be a great pleasure to me, sir, to assist
in such an undertaking; but you see that I can scarcely speak French;
you do not speak German at all; so that we shall find it difficult to
understand each other."
"If that is all," I returned, "I have in my
carriage yonder an interpreter, or rather an interpretress, with whom
you will, I hope, be quite satisfied, who speaks German like Goethe,
and to whom, when you have once begun to speak to her, I defy you not
to tell everything."
"Let us go, then, sir," answered the pedestrian. "I
ask no better than to be agreeable to you."
We walked toward the carriage, which was still
waiting on the highroad, and I presented to my travelling companion
the new recruit whom I had just gained. The usual greetings were
exchanged, and the dialogue began in the purest Saxon. Though I did
not understand a word that was said, it was easy for me to see, by the
rapidity of the questions and the length of the answers, that the
conversation was most interesting. At last, at the end of half an
hours growing desirous of knowing to what point they had come, I said,
"Well?"
"Well," answered my interpreter, "you are in luck's
way, and you could not have asked a better person."
"The gentleman knew Sand, then?"
"The gentleman is the governor of the prison in
which Sand was confined."
"Indeed?"
"For nine months—that is to say, from the day he
left the hospital— this gentleman saw him every day."
"Excellent!"
"But that is not all: this gentleman was with him
in the carriage that took him to execution; this gentleman was with
him on the scaffold; there's only one portrait of Sand in all Mannheim,
and this gentleman has it."
I was devouring every word; a mental alchemist, I
was opening my crucible and finding gold in it.
"Just ask," I resumed eagerly, "whether the
gentleman will allow us to take down in writing the particulars that
he can give me."
My interpreter put another question, then, turning
towards me, said, "Granted."
Mr. G——got into the carriage with us, and instead
of going on to Heidelberg, we returned to Mannheim, and alighted at
the prison.
Mr. G—-did not once depart from the ready kindness
that he had shown. In the most obliging manner, patient over the
minutest trifles, and remembering most happily, he went over every
circumstance, putting himself at my disposal like a professional guide.
At last, when every particular about Sand had been sucked dry, I began
to ask him about the manner in which executions were performed. "As to
that," said he, "I can offer you an introduction to someone at
Heidelberg who can give you all the information you can wish for upon
the subject."
I accepted gratefully, and as I was taking leave of
Mr. G——, after thanking him a thousand times, he handed me the offered
letter. It bore this superscription: "To Herr-doctor Widemann, No. III
High Street, Heidelberg."
I turned to Mr. G——once more.
"Is he, by chance, a relation of the man who
executed Sand?" I asked.
"He is his son, and was standing by when the head
fell.".
"What is his calling, then?"
"The same as that of his father, whom he succeeded."
"But you call him 'doctor'?"
"Certainly; with us, executioners have that title."
"But, then, doctors of what?"
"Of surgery."
"Really?" said I. "With us it is just the contrary;
surgeons are called executioners."
"You will find him, moreover," added Mr. G——, "a
very distinguished young man, who, although he was very young at that
time, has retained a vivid recollection of that event. As for his poor
father, I think he would as willingly have cut off his own right hand
as have executed Sand; but if he had refused, someone else would have
been found. So he had to do what he was ordered to do, and he did his
best."
I thanked Mr. G——, fully resolving to make use of
his letter, and we left for Heidelberg, where we arrived at eleven in
the evening.
My first visit next day was to Dr. Widernann. It
was not without some emotion, which, moreover, I saw reflected upon,
the faces of my travelling companions, that I rang at the door of the
last judge, as the Germans call him. An old woman opened the door to
us, and ushered us into a pretty little study, on the left of a
passage and at the foot of a staircase, where we waited while Mr.
Widemann finished dressing. This little room was full of curiosities,
madrepores, shells, stuffed birds, and dried plants; a double-barrelled
gun, a powder-flask, and a game-bag showed that Mr. Widemann was a
hunter.
After a moment we heard his footstep, and the door
opened. Mr. Widemann was a very handsome young man, of thirty or
thirty-two, with black whiskers entirely surrounding his manly and
expressive face; his morning dress showed a certain rural elegance. He
seemed at first not only embarrassed but pained by our visit. The
aimless curiosity of which he seemed to be the object was indeed odd.
I hastened to give him Mr. G——'s letter and to tell him what reason
brought me. Then he gradually recovered himself, and at last showed
himself no less hospitable and obliging towards us than he to whom we
owed the introduction had been, the day before.
Mr. Widemann then gathered together all his
remembrances; he, too, had retained a vivid recollection of Sand, and
he told us among other things that his father, at the risk of bringing
himself into ill odour, had asked leave to have a new scaffold made at
his own expense, so that no other criminal might be executed upon the
altar of the martyr's death. Permission had been given, and Mr.
Widemann had used the wood of the scaffold for the doors and windows
of a little country house standing in a vineyard. Then for three or
four years this cottage became a shrine for pilgrims; but after a
time, little by little, the crowd grew less, and at the present day,
when some of those who wiped the blood from the scaffold with their
handkerchiefs have became public functionaries, receiving salaries
from Government, only foreigners ask, now and again, to see these
strange relics.
Mr. Widemann gave me a guide; for, after hearing
everything, I wanted to see everything. The house stands half a league
away from Heidelberg, on the left of the road to Carlsruhe, and half-way
up the mountain-side. It is perhaps the only monument of the kind that
exists in the world.
Our readers will judge better from this anecdote
than from anything more we could say, what sort of man he was who left
such a memory in the hearts of his gaoler and his executioner. |