The Montreal massacre
'Just small game' - He was going hunting, and the
prey was 'feminists'
By Greg Weston and Jack Aubry - The Ottawa Citizen
Friday,
February 09, 2007
MONTREAL - He hoists the rifle to his shoulder,
presses his right cheek to the hardwood stock and slowly squeezes the
trigger, just like his uncle the paratrooper had taught him as a little
boy. The barrel sweeps to the left and stops, his eye now fixed just
beyond the front sights.
''What are you going after?'' the gun store clerk
asks.
''Just small game,'' he says, lowering the rifle.
He probably noticed the big banner as he walked out
of the Montreal gun shop that day: Good luck and good shooting.
Just small game.
Two months after Marc Lepine stalked his prey in the
halls of a Montreal engineering school, the mourners' flowers have
wilted but the impossible puzzle of a twisted young mind remains.
Lepine left behind only a few pieces of his macabre
jigsaw, scratched on a handwritten suicide note stuffed in his coat
pocket underneath a box of unspent rifle shells.
Much of it is a tirade against feminists who have ''always
ruined my life.''
On another line he writes: ''I have been unhappy for
the past seven years.''
Starting in the summer of 1982.
Marc Lepine had never been really happy _ hellish
years of child abuse at the hands of a violently chauvinist father; more
years of loneliness after his parents split and his mother was out
trying to support a family.
Only in his teenage years had he found any semblance
of happiness, mainly through an intense friendship with a neighborhood
chum named Jean Belanger.
It was in the summer of 1982 that Monique Lepine sold
their house in Pierrefonds and moved with Marc and his younger sister
Nadia to another part of Montreal.
The rented apartment at 2675 Marlborough Ct. in St.
Laurent was a modern two-storey rowhouse in a pleasant suburban
neighborhood.
And it was much closer to Marc's new junior college
and her own nursing director's job at St. Jude's hospital.
But it was far enough away from Pierrefonds to break
Marc's bonds of friendship with Belanger.
He had already been rejected by the army. Now he was
spending the summer washing dishes in the kitchen of his mother's
hospital.
Belanger visited Marlborough Court before they lost
touch: ''Marc didn't seem very happy there. We had been together for so
long. I guess maybe he was lonely. He didn't have much to do.''
Lepine began spending long periods locked in his
small bedroom crammed with huge stacks of his beloved books, a wood
table where he tinkered with electronics, and a computer_his
obsession_donated by one of his mother's friends at the hospital.
Lepine enrolled in a two-year program in pure
sciences at CEGEP St. Laurent junior college, continuing his high school
path towards engineering school.
Perhaps it was his loneliness. Maybe the courses
didn't come as easily as they had in high school. At the end of his
first term at St. Laurent, he had flunked two subjects, his first
academic failures ever.
Belanger remembers Lepine telling him he would get
home from CEGEP in the evenings and ''just sit in front of his computer
and start playing with it. That had become his hobby.''
Shortly after Lepine turned 18 that fall, he filed
the papers necessary to officially bury Gamil Rodrigue Gharbi, the name
given him at birth by the father he loved to hate.
Lepine and his mother lived alone at Marlborough
Court for most of the first two years after Nadia went off to boarding
school. That was okay with Marc. He despised his sister's taunts.
The second term at CEGEP, in the winter of 1983, went
much better than the first. His marks ranged from the 70s to the 90s,
and he was well on his way to fulfilling a boyhood dream _ to graduate
in engineering from Montreal's Ecole Polytechnique.
Dec. 6, 1989. In the cluttered turquoise bedroom, he
pulls the new Kodiaks over the cuffs of his blue jeans. He loops his
belt through the sheath of the hunting knife and buckles it.
He reaches for the rifle. The curved 30-round
magazine clip of high-powered bullets hangs from the stalk like a
rectangular banana. He stuffs the gun into a garbage bag.
He folds the letter and puts it in his windbreaker
pocket, then jams a box of 20 shells in with it. Another box of them is
stuffed in the other pocket.
He tugs the ''Tracteur Montreal'' baseball cap down
over his forehead, picks up the garbage bag and heads for the rented
car.
It is just after 4 p.m.
In the fall of 1983, Lepine began what would become a
long sequence of curious career moves.
At the end of his first of two years in pure sciences
_ the usual route to engineering school _ he switched into electronics
technology, a three-year vocational trades program.
Lepine excelled at his new vocation _ 82 in
industrial electronics; 87 in control systems and so on down the list.
Marcel Leroux, head of the CEGEP's professional
electronics program, said most of the professors can't remember Lepine.
''He was not super-brilliant, but neither was he
stupid. He really was low profile.''
CEGEP director Claude Boily says Lepine was never
seen by any of the institution's psychologists ''and there were no
reports in his file noting that he had any behavioral problems.''
But he was also becoming increasingly hyperactive,
always in a hurry. All nerves. And acne. Severe acne that embarrassed
him.
Nadia's boarding school roommate, Isabelle Lahaie,
used to visit the Marlborough Street apartment regularly: ''Marc was a
good guy. But he was closed. He had a strange look _ his eyes were lit
up, he had the same smile all the time... You could see he was unhappy.''
For the next two years, Marc Lepine's world was CEGEP
classrooms and his Marlborough Street bedroom.
As he headed home for the Christmas holidays that
year, Lepine was only nine courses away from graduation _ seven in the
winter term, two in the summer.
But fifteen days after the winter term began Jan. 31,
Lepine simply stopped going to classes.
There were no discussions with anyone at the school.
No explanations. No notice. Just gone. He was 21.
Nadia's former roommate Lahaie speculates: ''That's
when Nadia left... to return to live with her mother and get on his (Marc's)
back fulltime.
''I can still hear Nadia telling me: 'If you really
want to get him mad, call him Gamil _ and tell him he is ugly and stupid.'
''
The headlights moving along Bordeaux Street have
slowed to a solemn procession in the freezing drizzle.
There are 15 wrought-iron stairs to the street.
Normally, he takes them two at a time. This time he is calm.
He climbs in the small car he rented earlier in the
day, turns the key and joins the procession down Bordeaux Street.
Marc Lepine's life in the winter of 1986 went from
strange to weird.
Just before _ or just after _ he quit CEGEP in his
final term, he applied for admission to engineering at the Ecole
Polytechnique.
Not surprisingly, he was rejected.
Then he enrolled in two summer courses, but dropped
them before he started.
Lepine was finished with school for a while.
For the next 16 months, the shy brainy kid was
washing dishes, serving food and mopping floors at St. Jude's Hospital
for the chronically ill.
On July 1, 1986, Lepine moved away from his mother _
and his sister.
Lepine's apartment No. 401 was a modern one-bedroom
with a small cement balcony on the top floor of a boxy 24-unit block at
4185 St. Martin Blvd. in the northwest Montreal suburb of Laval.
The $10 an hour he was making at the hospital was
plenty to cover his $300 rent. He didn't drink. He didn't smoke. No
drugs. No girls.
The place was always clean, he never complained,
never made trouble for his neighbors. And the rent was always paid on
time.
Building superintendent Luc Riopel said: ''He was a
good guy. But he lived in isolation and did not appear very happy.''.
Lepine was always running, heavy-footed, crashing
through doors at full speed. No one complained, except the day he hit
the front door so hard he broke off the crash bar.
''He told me he didn't like working at the hospital.
It was not what he wanted to do for a living. It was just a job for him.
His real interest was in computers. And war books. He had a lot of war
books... ''
The wipers are streaking the freezing rain across the
windshield as he turns on to the long, steep drive that leads to the six-storey
yellow engineering school at the top of the hill. The parking booth is
50 metres up the slope. He pays the attendant $5.
The car pulls to a stop in front of the student
entrance. A tow-away zone. He doesn't much care. He won't be back for it
anyway. The letter in his pocket says so...
Dominique Leclair was 19 when she met Lepine that
summer in the kitchen at St. Jude's. Her father runs the hospital and
was good friends with Monique Lepine when she was his nursing director.
He gave Marc his job.
But that's not why Dominique befriended Marc Lepine.
''I was kind to him because he was so hyperactive and
nervous, nobody would talk to him at lunch or break time... Everyone
else tried to avoid him because he was a bit strange because of his
shyness.''
Lepine's hyperactivity and his job didn't mix either.
''He was always rushing things. He would never be
calm.''
He raced the food carts the same way he did
everything else. Always in a hurry. Soup got spilled. Dishes got broken.
Everytime he made a mess of something, his reaction
was always the same: ''Ah shit.''
Finally, he was put on food-serving duty in the
cafeteria where his pace would at least be tempered by the task. But the
steamy kitchen atmosphere had festered his already unsightly acne
problem.
Dominique recalls: ''The employees would say they
didn't want him to serve them their lunch because of his acne. They were
mean.''
Lepine was stuffed back in the kitchen where no one
would have to look at his pimples.
He tried growing a beard to hide the acne, but it was
scraggly and seemed to make the rest of his complexion worse. He would
cut it off and grow it again like a suburban lawn.
No matter how hard he might have tried, Lepine just
couldn't shed his shyness. Even with Dominique, he would stir his food
and stare at the floor when he was speaking.
Dominique never had any inkling he might be
interested in her romantically. ''Maybe if I had asked him out, okay...
But I didn't sense he had any of that feeling. We were just friends.''
Part of the problem was Marc Lepine figured he was
just plain ugly. That's why he didn't have a girlfriend.
Dominique remembers him saying: ''I've asked a lot of
girls out, but they have all refused. I know so many girls, but they
won't go out with me. I'm not good looking... ''
He is walking slowly, 48 paces along the cement path
to the four sets of steel and glass doors, the ones beneath the huge
sign Ecole Polytechnique de Montreal.
The gun in the garbage bag is hanging at his side as
he steps into the crowded, noisy foyer. Just another engineering student
with another piece of equipment.
The college guards in the glass cubicle to the right
pay him no heed. Nor do the other students.
It is the last hour of the last day of classes before
Christmas holidays.
In September 1987, after Dominique had gone back to
school, Lepine quit the hospital, probably not far ahead of being fired.
The next time Dominque heard the name Marc Lepine was
the day her first cousin Maryse Leclair died. By sheer coincidence, she
was Lepine's last victim.
Lepine turned 23 shortly after he quit the hospital,
and enrolled that fall in three courses at the nearby CEGEP Montmorency.
His marks were all good: 81 in advanced algebra; 75
in a course called the ethics of politics; 84 in mass communications. As
in the past, his 15 weeks at the CEGEP were thoroughly unremarkable.
After Christmas, he stayed on in his St. Martin
apartment and spent most of his free time with a new Apple computer he
had bought with his savings from the hospital.
On Feb. 29, 1988, two months after his course ended
at CEGEP Montmorency, Lepine filled in an application for a computer
programming course at the privately-run Control Data Institute in
downtown Montreal.
He lied about his work at the hospital, and listed
''David Caron, friend'' as the person to contact in case of an emergency.
The address he gave for Caron doesn't exist and the phone number was
Lepine's own apartment.
Not surprisingly, computer whiz Lepine got 90 per
cent on his admission test and began to take his courses on March 11. He
was 23.
The $9,000 fee for the 15-month program was covered
by a $5,940 student loan, and the balance by Lepine in $200 monthly
instalments which he never missed.
Jean Cloutier, director of the institute, described
Lepine in familiar terms: ''He was an isolated hard worker. Very much
above average... His marks throughout were probably in the top 15 per
cent.''
Cloutier said about the only thing remotely notable
about Lepine was the way he dressed. No blue jeans; they were banned.
But he always looked sloppy. Always wore a baseball cap.
And the acne. Everyone noticed he had bad acne.
In June 1988, Lepine moved downtown from his St.
Martin Boulevard apartment in suburban Laval.
On moving day, his landlord Riopel recalls that he
never mentioned anything about taking computer programming at Control
Data _ or anywhere else.
''He told me he was going off to join the Armed
Forces... ''
He is moving up the beige stairwell from the ground
floor to the second, new Kodiaks on terrazzo, the stainless steel
railing sliding through his free hand. Thirteen steps to the landing.
Another 13 to the top. Through the red steel fire doors.
Down one hallway, into another and another. The
second floor is a maze of confusing corridors, lounges and student
supply shops. Room 230 is the only classroom on the floor, hidden at the
end of a wide corridor lined with photocopiers, beyond a set of steel
doors, the last room at the end of another narrow twisting hall.
He must have been there before.
Bordeaux Street is typical of blue-collar Montreal _
a narrow one-way collage of overhead wires, parked cars and skinny, red-brick
walkups.
The second floor apartment at 2175 Bordeaux would be
Marc Lepine's last home.
The neighborhood wasn't far from Control Data, and
Lepine's mother had moved into a new condo three blocks away. The rent
was right _ $285 a month _ split with an old high school acquaintance
Erik Cossette.
He was Lepine's age, a little shorter, with curly
blonde hair. A theatre student, the landlord says. Their mothers had
kept in touch.
Beyond the brown front door with the dirty glass
window, the apartment was typical student digs: a narrow hallway with
worn-through linoleum. One sickly green bedroom. A smaller one in
turquoise. A dilapidated bathroom in deep blue. A dirty beige sitting
area. The yellow kitchen.
Marc got the small bedroom, about eight-by-ten. His
mother helped him paint it turquoise.
The size of Lepine's room made it more chaotic than
usual. A sofa bed along one wall; the Apple computer and a clutter of
electronic parts on the desk in front of the window. The view is a blind
alley and a spaghetti of telephone wires.
Everywhere there are piles of books, floor to ceiling,
two deep. Even in the clothes closet.
There are two prints on the wall. One is a war scene.
Nothing about women.
And there are video-cassettes, lots of them, mostly
Pay-TV movies taped from the television and VCR in the sitting room.
Lots about war in those.
He is through the beige steel doors into a narrow
concrete hall. The garbage bag falls off the rifle. Seven paces, then
right, then left. He walks slowly through the doorless entrance at the
front of the cavernous cement-block classroom.
He stops a metre from the two female students giving
their fourth-year presentations. He appears calm.
He orders the women to move to one side of the room,
the men to leave. There are titters. They think it's a prank. He fires a
shot into the ceiling.
''I want the women,'' he says. ''You're all a bunch
of feminists.''
''I hate feminists.''
Gina Cousineau had never seen him look so dapper, so
prosperous, as that evening he walked into the 1988 high school reunion
for the class of '82. A black shirt done up to the neck. Black pants. A
nicely tailored black sports coat.
Marc Lepine had been certain he would find his old
pal Jean Belanger at the party, though they hadn't spoken in almost four
years.
But Belanger was in hospital with a crushed leg after
a garage door fell on him.
Lepine called him the next day and told him he was
thinking of joining the army. It was the last time they ever spoke.
Lepine spent the entire reunion evening with Gina,
Belanger's teenage sweetheart, the third member of the high school happy
threesome.
Gina remembers the evening well, the last time she
would ever see her old friend: ''He looked like he always looked, that
big smile. He always had that smile on his face, even if things weren't
going so well.''
Lepine never strayed far from Gina and her new fiance
the whole evening. He always ordered Coke at the bar.
Gina asked him if he had a girlfriend: ''He told me,
'I had one, but she dumped me.' ''
The reunion was in late August 1988. He was almost
half-way through Control Data.
He never mentioned Control Data.
''He told me he had just lost his job and was going
back to university in the fall. He didn't mention which one.''
Gina asked him how he lost his job at the hospital:
''He said he had made one small mistake during his three-month
probationary period and, bang, they told him to get lost.
''He told me he had been fired by a woman and that
another woman had taken his place.
''He was really mad about that... ''
There is mayhem in the main corridor outside Room
230. The 50-odd men who left as ordered are screaming at people to run.
Inside the classroom, six women are dead. The other three are wounded.
He is out in the main corridor again, down at the
other end by the photocopiers. He keeps his back to the wall. Wheels.
Fires. Wheeling and firing again.
The wounded are moaning for help. The woman selling
posters dives behind her table. He is six paces past her. He stops,
turns. The rifle recoils.
Sylvie Drouin thought he was a pretty ''good-looking
guy'' that first night she walked into the chemistry class in February
1989. Five-foot-nine, 160 pounds, curly brown hair. A beard. A baseball
cap. Sure, he had bad acne. But she didn't care about stuff like that.
She asked him to be her lab partner. Drouin was 28,
four years older than Lepine, and already had an arts degree from Laval
University. Like him, she is shy.
Both of them were also taking the CEGEP chemistry
course as a key prerequisite to engineering school.
Over the ensuing weeks, Lepine would continue his
studies at Control Data in the afternoons from 1 p.m. until 6 p.m., then
spend two nights a week at the nearby CEGEP de Vieux Montreal taking the
chemistry course.
Sylvie Drouin would also become perhaps the closest
Marc Lepine could come to a relationship with a woman.
It got off to a rocky start: ''The first few weeks in
the lab, he was very severe with me. I was never correct. He was being a
facist. The lab was never done well enough. He was always right... ''
''And he was giving me these orders all the time.
Wash those things. Don't do the calculation like that. Go and get
something. Do this. Don't do that.''
He called her ''fraulein.''
After two weeks of harassment, Drouin told him to
either back off or find another lab partner. Lepine didn't say much in
reply, just frowned and scowled. But he was at least more civil after
that.
As usual, Lepine mastered the work easily and would
get a final mark in the 90s.
But Drouin says Lepine was a bundle of nerves sitting
next to her. ''He was good at the theory, but at practical things he was
no good. He was so nervous, he would make mistakes. His mind would
wander. He would put too many drops in the solution, that kind of thing.''
Every time Lepine would make a mistake, something
that made him angry at himself, his reaction was always the same.
''Ah shit.''
Drouin was taking another night course in computers
and asked if he would help with her homework. She suggested maybe she
could come to his place.
''He was really pleased to help. He needed to feel
important to other people.''
The next night, Drouin made the first of a dozen
visits to Bordeaux Street over the ensuing three months.
''In the beginning, he was a lot of fun. I remember
the first time I walked in and he told me to sit on the chair and he
showed me all these things he could do with his computer _ colors, three-dimensional
stuff, that kind of thing.''
But Lepine wasn't so much interested in helping as
impressing. ''He didn't want to do them (the problems) with me. He
didn't teach me. He just wanted to solve the problems himself and hand
them to me.''
He didn't want to talk about his family. ''He just
said, 'Oh, I have a mother in Montreal.' That's all.''
Every night Sylvie visited Bordeaux Street, Lepine
would always insist on walking her back to her bus. Very gentlemanly.
But that was it.
She certainly wasn't pressing him into a romance: ''I
think in his mind, the girl has to worship everything he does, that
everything he does is right. Like in those first few labs...
''If you follow him and his ways, things are fine. If
you don't, there is nothing. He gets very cold and withdrawn.''
Drouin's initial attraction to Lepine had evaporated:
''I like the different kind, not whackos, but different. But to be with
a guy like that, you would have to give your whole life to him, just
follow him.''
Early in their relationship, Drouin made the mistake
of casually asking Lepine if he had a girlfriend. ''He was surprised I
would even ask the question. He got mad. He said, 'What do you want to
know that for?' So I shut up... ''
He turns through the student lounge. Left again, the
rifle sweeping air. He moves along a now empty corridor. New Kodiaks on
red tile floor. He is at the end. He starts to turn left. He stops. A
door clicks shut behind him. A female employee of the finance department
is just closing up for the night.
He spins. The gun cracks once. Then again. And again.
He wheels back into the stairwell. A student who has
come to check out the commotion freezes. He is male. The gunman laughs
and disappears down the stairs.
It was March 31, 1989. Lepine was two months and two
relatively easy courses away from finishing his computer programming
work at Control Data.
At 6 p.m. that day, he signed out on the attendance
sheet and never came back.
Institute director Cloutier says everyone there was
completely baffled: ''With his background in electronics, plus his high
standings in programming, he was well on his way to becoming a computer
genius.''
Lepine returned some books to the institute two weeks
later and mentioned in passing he had decided to change careers. They
never saw him again.
Lepine never mentioned it to Sylvie, pretending for
the next two months that he was still enrolled. But she noticed his mood
slowly started to change.
''He slowly got more difficult to communicate with.
He became very withdrawn and closed.''
In the chemistry class, lab assistant Andre Tremblay
remembers Lepine's eyes were perpetually bloodshot, as though he weren't
sleeping.
Drouin tried to include him in her social life, but
to no avail.
''Once we had a party on a Thursday night in a bar
downtown and I asked him if he wanted to come. He was alone and he
seemed very down.
''He just said, 'No, I don't drink and I never go in
that kind of place.' There was no discussion.''
The only time he ever asked her to stay late during
one of her visits was to watch one of the movies he had on VCR.
''They were pretty well all violent stuff, not just
war films but science fiction, police movies. I told him I didn't like
violence and went home.''
One day, Lepine arrived in chemistry class with a
full-page story from a Montreal tabloid about a policewoman named Angele
who had just saved an old man from a burning house.
Lepine didn't think women should be on the police
force. They weren't big enough or strong enough.
Lab instructor Tremblay remembers Lepine making the
bizarre remark that there were only six women on the Montreal police
force.
How did he know that? Tremblay asked, suggesting
there must be far more.
''And he said, 'To date, I have only found the names
of six of them in newspaper stories... ' ''
The last time Sylvie Drouin saw Lepine at Bordeaux
Street was one afternoon about a week after the last chemistry class.
''I had come away from there with a very strange
feeling like I would never see him again, that I didn't want to see him
again and I didn't. I told him I might call in the summer but I never
did.''
Lepine was ''very strange, in a very hurried state,
like someone with something very important on his mind. It was as though
he had something to do that no one else could know about... ''
Sylvie Drouin had been accepted into engineering at
the University of Quebec in Trois Rivieres.
Marc Lepine told her he was going to the Ecole
Polytechnique in the fall.
The stairwell from the second floor empties into the
foyer near the main doors where he had entered the school minutes before.
He is 15 steps away from them. The rented car is still there. He can see
it. He could leave. But he doesn't.
He moves across the foyer to the huge cafeteria.
There are people everywhere. The gun recoils. And
again. And again. Then pandemonium. Three more young women dead.
He is back in the foyer by the main doors. Again, he
could leave. But he doesn't.
Erik Cossette never did notice anything particularly
alarming about his roommate on Bordeaux Street.
Lepine was ''emotionally repressed,'' a dud with
women, and while he often made sexist remarks, those were ''no more
disturbing than what one hears from many men.''
Cossette describes a quiet intellectual, fascinated
by technology, intrigued by history and world politics, and always happy
to help a friend.
''Doing favors was his way of expressing his
affection for people.''
Cossette said Lepine had become an avid reader of gun
magazines, but it just seemed to be ''an interest like any other.''
Sometime around the end of the summer, Cossette
decided to go backpacking in South America and moved out of Bordeaux
Street.
On Aug. 29, Lepine walked into the Montreal
headquarters of the Quebec Provincial Police to pick up an application
form for a firearms acquisition certificate.
As he was leaving the building, he ran into his
sister Nadia's old boarding school friend Isabelle Lahaie.
''He told me he was finding out how to get a gun. He
said it was for hunting.''
Lepine was back at the police station Sept. 4, Labor
Day, with the completed application and his $10 fee.
As long as he was not a mental patient and had no
record of violent crimes, Lepine would be licensed to buy as many guns
as he could afford.
As it happened, his application got buried in the pre-hunting
season rush and permit No. AA2092373 did not arrive at Bordeaux Street
until mid-October.
It was about that time the clerks in the Checkmate
Sports store on St. Hubert Street remember first seeing Lepine browsing
among the gun racks, asking a lot of questions.
Since Cossette had left, Lepine's cousin, Michel
Thiery, had moved in to Bordeaux Street. He was a couple of years
younger than Lepine, blonde and clean-shaven.
The neighbors didn't notice anything unusual about
Lepine in the fall. There were his calls for grocery deliveries. A bit
odd. The store is right across the street.
And there was the late-night laughter. One voice. No
other sound.
He is back in the stairwell. Up 13 stairs to the
landing. Up another flight to the second floor. Up two more flights and
through the red doors with the sloppy ''3'' magic markered over them. He
turns right, past a wide corridor. Past the security office with the
closed door and frosted glass.
He turns right, down the second corridor. It is 22
paces to Room 311, one of three classrooms on the left. He looks through
the glass in the door. He is smiling when he enters the room at the
front. Someone has just pulled the fire alarm. The bells are clanging in
his ears.
It was around 1:30 p.m. on Nov. 21 and Lepine was
making his last visit to Checkmate Sports on St. Hubert Street.
Ninety minutes later, Lepine had chosen a Sturm Ruger
Mini-14, the same kind a lot of police SWAT teams use. The weapon is a
semi-automatic. Fires each time the trigger is pulled without reloading.
The gun comes with a five-shot magazine. Lepine asks
for a banana clip that will spit 30 bullets, one after another, into the
chamber. Just pull the trigger.
Lepine grabbed five of the powder blue boxes stamped
''Remington 223'' from the assortment of ammunition piled a metre high
in the middle of the floor. Twenty shells in each. A hundred rounds.
It is a critical choice.
The bullets Lepine bought have solid slugs that go in
one side of a target and clean out the other, not like hunting shells
that expand on impact and blow the insides out of an animal.
Lepine bought them because they are the cheapest
ammunition.
Store owner Gilbert Rosenberg would later say: ''If
Lepine had known what he was doing when he was buying the shells, the 13
people injured (at Ecole Polytechnique) would be dead today.''
The clerk suggests Lepine buy a carrying case. The
folks on the bus might take an open assault rifle the wrong way.
The total on the bill comes to $765.03, but Lepine
doesn't have enough money. He is embarrassed.
''Ah, shit,'' he said.
He leaves a $100 deposit, says he is going to his
bank and is back with the cash in less than 30 minutes.
Shortly before 4 p.m., Marc Lepine carried the black
rectangular plastic case out of the store.
They thought they had heard something that sounded
like shots about two minutes before. The female student giving a
presentation at the front of Room 311 had paused, then continued.
Suddenly, he bursts into the room and orders everyone
out. Maybe just the men. No one can quite remember. No one moves.
Another joke. He fires a shot. Everyone is diving under desks, cowering.
Terrified.
There is another sudden burst of gunfire. Blood on
the desks. More on the floor. Someone is moaning. Now he is walking
across the desks.
Monique Lepine last saw her son on Sat. Dec. 2, four
days before his rampage.
She would later tell friends she could recall no
peculiar behavior, no telling comment. No final hug. Nothing unusual.
The landlord also dropped by Bordeaux Street several
times that weekend to collect the December rent. No one answered the
door. No one answered his subsequent phone calls.
For the first time, the forever meticulous Lepine had
not paid his rent on time.
On Monday evening, Dec. 4, the First Choice pay-TV
channel in Montreal featured an extraordinarily violent Chuck Connors
film, dubbed into French, called Commando Terreur.
The film is about two terrorists who take students
hostage in their school. Some of them are shot. The terrorists are Arab.
Lepine watched a lot of violent films, and he was a
subscriber to the pay-channel. It is not known if he tuned in the movie
that night.
At some point in his final days, Lepine sat down and
penned his now infamous three-page suicide note, essentially a eulogy to
personal failures.
He bemoans that he was rejected by the army for what
he calls ''anti-social behavior.''
And most of all, ''feminists have always ruined my
life.''
On the third page are listed the names of 15
prominent women, including six female police officers _ the same ones he
had discussed with his chemistry instructor eight months before.
The letter is not a blind rage. Some of it reflects
an eerie sense of calm and rational thought.
He instructs that his old refrigerator be given to
his landlord in lieu of the month's rent he hasn't paid.
The rest _ his books, the computer, his bicycle _
will go to his childhood pal Jean Belanger.
He is thinking about the end. Getting his house in
order like anyone dying of a terminal disease.
The letter begins: ''I will die on December 6,
1989.''
It ends: ''Marc.''
He is at the front of the classroom, at the lecturn
where she had been giving her term-end presentation when he walked in
and shot her. Three other women in the room are dead. She is moaning.
He pulls the knife from the sheaf on his belt. It is
not like a trigger that causes detached targets to fall. Not like the
trigger that is about to blow the top off his own head.
The moaning stops. There is blood on his hand. Blood
on the blade. The knife clatters to the tile floor.
They hear his last two words.